ok, tonight i tried to overcome myself and break out of my shell. i went to a bar/club out in carlsbad in california. now I'm usually either dead asleep at 10 or i'm playing a game on my laptop. today i thought I'd try and break out of my shell and start to work on my non-existent game. when i first arrived at the place i noticed a few glances towards my way from a few girls. but that was all it was.
as the night continued i tried to dance with a few girls but it didn't really work out. one of my sergeants (I'm in the military) told me to "accidentally" bump into a girl. he'd told me that i could either a) get a positive response and dance with the girl or b) get a slightly negative response as she giggled and went about her business with her friends. i tried what he said and i got the wrong type of answer from what he'd told me, what i got was just her raising her hand telling me straight out no as she walked away like i'd insulted her or something. later on i'm on the dance floor again and a girl started talking to me, but i couldn't hear what she was saying and kept telling her "what?". after her trying to repeat her question, her friend pulled her away and told her to stop talking to me.
i gotta say, this night i felt like a fool for even trying to break out of my shell. and i also felt stupid for even trying. can somebody please help me with whatever it is that's causing me problems?