She specifically said i misinterpreted the comment on the Alaska cruise and apologized. Just like she said we can do the birthday next year but not now. She meant she hoped we would be friends next year to do those things. As far as the flowers.....if some other guy sent flowers, I won't. You are right.
I can't text her that....first I have a son and can't get away anywhere. Second it will validate any mistrust she has about me being selfish, as well as validate her decision that I'm not the responsible, quality man she thought I was. She definitely has trust issues...she told me and her friend told me. It will be a very slow process to regain trust.
You should get rid of the jealousy strategy with this woman. All it did in the past was make her really angry, and I don't want her to rehash the past....plus it validates the mistrust. She isn't a young college chick.
I haven't apologized any more or acted needy or angry.....those things I have going for me.
I already spoke with her friend Maria, another head nurse on the same floor. Maria helped me a few years ago when we had a breakup. She has a family as well and can relate that we all want the same thing. She said to not give up on Carol, but don't push her away. Carol is feeling like I may "pull the rug out from her again" and doesn't trust me. She is just expecting for me to fail her again. Carol is trying to fix and find herself these days....before I could get clarification on that, there was a code blue(dying) and she had to hang up.
I don't want to sound harsh or ungrateful.....I am extremely grateful. I just need to communicate to you as much as I can about her character since you can't see her or know her.