My own advice can't save me... partly
As you all know, I can give some pretty solid advice from time to time. Usually, my advice comes from a recognition of my failures and of other people's mistakes. In addition, I usually think very often on the mechanics of the things I learn, and they evolve into a viewpoint that is based on what I think is proper etiquette when participating in the game.
After all these months, I could say that I am a walking encyclopedia. I have read, let to sit, and digested thousands of pages of material, and I am a completely different man than I am before, and my successes have come around to shine.
All of my guy friends are starting to hold me up to new esteem. They have been inviting me to their parties, and I am a frequent guest to their activities. Likewise, when I make plans they are quick to hop in my bandwagon. As for my personality, I can say that I am now incredibly strong-willed, but very passive when it comes to any negative happenings that may threaten my focus and positive thinking in times when I want to do so.
However, not everything is good. Although things may be fine on the male side, the female side is certainly still terrible.
I've been doing a lot of my game at the beach recently, and I had a success a few weeks ago with a large group. Sure, I finally made some number closes with that group, but here is the problem. They were all at the bottom of the group they were in, and their friends moved the conversation so that I was interacting with the one that they wanted me to pick. In the end, I said fark that to the girl they stuck me with, and the more attractive ones either wanted nothing to do with me, or they got at my brother.
In addition, I've been working out on a raft that is out at the beach, and a lot of the ladies go out to it. While I'm out there, I get the crowd going with trick competitions and fun conversations. The men and the kids all think I'm the greatest, but the women want nothing to do with me. I try to get them interacting, but they always go right back to ignoring me and carrying on their own conversations. Once again, the more attractive ones went for my brother (I f*cking hate this more than anything )
And then there's the parties. All the men at the parties think I'm chill, fun, and awesome, but the women don't even want to interact with me. Because of the body language books I read, I do interesting things like combining humor and body language readings, and then flirt with them when I can. I'm usually right with the readings, but I can never keep them. In the end, they all go to hit on the mellow pot heads in the corner of the room.
I know exactly where my problem is. It's all in that initial pickup phase. It's all in trying to create interest, capture them, and get something out of it. However, no matter what I've studied or what I've tried, I just can't farking do it. In addition, I deeply hate my brother right now for what he is doing. Not only is he talking sh1t behind my back at work (he's created a false reputation that I'm a Nazi), but he's also pulling everybody away from me. Looks alone win it for him, and he's a dweeb in appearances. I've told him to stop with the comments, but he's just an ass who does as he pleases. I told him about the game, and he degrades me and ridicules me over that too. I don't even know what in the world I have to do in order to be successful when he's around.
I have an incredibly troubling problem on my hands, where none of my knowledge, nor any advice I can find, can even help me on this. I don't even know where to start, and I don't know where I can look, or how I can look, to find answers.
"There is no better than adversity. Every defeat, every heartbreak, every loss, contains its own seed, its own lesson on how to improve your performance the next time." - Malcolm X