so something I struggle with is the concept of gender roles. I've always been uncomfortable with the idea of leading escalation. I've always thought to myself "it's not fair! girls have it so easy! this is bullshit! women should learn how to lead too!" but then I thought, "why not me?" I turned the tables and asked myself "why does it have to be them?" I also get pissed off whenever I hear people talk about how women want a "provider". it sounds like superconservative 50's bullshit to me. There may be some truth in it, and every woman is different, so I'm trying to figure out the most realistic way of thinking about it.
I also wrestle with the idea of touching people who I'm not *really really* interested in as a friend or sex partner. I think I need to expand my personal bubble a little bit. I don't flirt with anyone unless I really want to be with them. I don't just flirt for fun. trying to figure out how to change my Mindset on that as well.
those are my thoughts as I read the forums and read PUA podcasts. feel free to send feedback/comments/whatever.