So this may seem kind of vague, because it's hard for me to describe what it is I'm asking.
Alright. Here. We. Gooooooo! There's this girl at work who's younger (18) and I'm 25, one of her managers. We've worked together the past 4 months, and I've been teasing her, having a good chemistry going - in a way - (the age gap is a little different than what I'm used to) and just in general I've gotten to know her and we've shared a few personal stories so I feel like as a co-worker, we're mildly close in a flirty way. Every time she sees me she initiates flirting and shit-tests but she's very, erhm, active, with other guys (so I hear) so I'm not the only one on her radar (no big deal). She's a sweet little ginger that reminds me of Lindsey Lohan, you know, the version of her before she went all drugs and DUI's. Cutest damn thing. Anyway I haven't seen her much at all in the last few weeks because she's getting ready for college and plays sports.
Tonight, we had to work from 8-9:30, the whole store together as basically a cleaning crew, and I got to spend some time with her. She's still young so she has this magnetic, high-energy about her that I love, and she came right up to me and with glowing eyes and a smile says that she misses me and jokes that we get to spend time together. Sounded pretty good. But here's the problem, and what I've come here to ask:
She would randomly walk by me while I was cleaning something and grab and rub my arms to feel my biceps. I was so focused on what I was doing that I didn't know what to say off the bat. So as quick as I could, I said something to the effect of, "Hey! You can look but don't touch!" to which she responded with "I already did" and stuck her tongue out at me, smiled, and walked away.
A few more instances like this happened, and one or two where, on a different level, I could tell she was trying to joke around with me and kind of do that joking vibe as opposed to flirting, and I just feel like I'm starting to become such a boring-ass adult that I said something weird that didn't jive or feel right to me, or wasn't as upbeat and fun as her. I come up short in what would otherwise be an ideal opportunity to really ramp it up with her, and many other girls I've had this experience with for that matter. I used to be there when I was younger and had more vitality for life, but now it's hard to get into the right head space and be spontaneous and quick, and in general fun with my banter.
I think I've explained it pretty well. Basically I'm asking how can I train my brain again, or maybe come up with some sort of system, to be wittier and more fun-loving like I was when I was younger. There's so much material out there now that makes game seem like, well, just a game -- much of it divorcing the real romance, chemistry, and just in general living in the moment and giving love back that I haven't been able to find much on this subject besides something kind of New Age... like, Eckhart Tolle's Living In the Now or something...
Any ideas? Or maybe I've demonstrated a lack of something apart of my inner game that you guys intuit I could work on that could make this issue take care of itself? Regardless, I appreciate the feedback.
I came on here tonight in search of guidance because she went to the fun chinese restaurant next-door with a few of the girls we work with and didn't invite me or say good bye. I know that whatever I'm trying to explain is a big source of disappointment in myself, and that I want to get this part of my life completely and 100% handled... before (I fear) I become as disillusioned, lazy and apathetic as my parents' generation. Thanks again!