After a long day of fixing things at one of my rental properties, I decided that I wanted to call a hooker...

I called one and drove down there and she had an "emergency" and couldn't meet.... so I decided to go out to a bar that was close by.... it was an upscale bar where you can usually find attractive, young people...

I sat there by myself and all of the other people there were with people they already knew (I'm just assuming that they all knew each other from before that night because it seemed that way).... it's hard to walk up to a bunch of strangers and interject myself in their conversation, plus I have the insecurity that I look like a creepy old guy even though I'm only 28....

I sit there and don't talk and drink juice and water...

At one point, the female bartender pissed me off really bad because she acted like I was supposed to be waiting on HER and wasn't even the least bit pleasant or hospitable.... I was going to tip her, but then she ignored something I said and gave me a fake smile, so it pissed me off and I decided to tip nothing....

I noticed that a lot of the other guys there were doing a lot of work just to get "make outs." I, personally, wouldn't even care to "make out" with a girl.... it doesn't appeal to me. Sex, yes. "Make out," no.

The only things I could think to talk about were Lamborghini's and business.

When the place closed, I decided to call another escort. I found one that picked up and went over there. (I hope I don't get kicked off for this, I am just stating facts of what happened).

The sex was really good. She gave great head (as all escorts should, but not all do, surprisingly). The actual intercourse didn't last for very long because she came in about 3 minutes and said she didn't want to do it anymore.

What struck me as significant was that she said I seemed really nervous and scared before it started. I don't know why I still come across this way. I have had sex with probably 45 girls at this point, but I still come across this way. If I have this much anxiety even when sitting naked right next to someone, how bad do you think my anxiety is when I'm at the bar trying to be normal and social? It's paralyzing. She also said I was really weird and I think she was scared of me at certain times because she felt the need to tell me that she had friends that would know if anything bad happened to her. Yet at one point, she told me that she "liked me," and smiled, so I guess I'm not scary at all times.

My only course of action is to get on anxiety medication and maybe that will help.

Does anyone have anything to say or anything that might help?

I am 28 years old. About to turn 29 and I feel old as hell. I feel like my window of being able to get young, attractive girls is winding down and that I wasted it all, anyway.