I turned 21, I moved from cali 5 years ago and now I live in a rich area in portland, oregon ! lots of stuck up snobs ... I'm 6'4'' 240 pounds pretty lean ( I use hormones ), I know that there aren't many people at my age that are like my size, I'm a big muscular boy ! I used to do modeling from 12 - 16 but as I got older I wasn't interested, so I guess im goodlookin
but the problem is, I just can't smile, I have this macho man mentality which I think it's because I'm not mature yet, maybe i got pscychological problems thats why i did bodybuilding and juiced up, but anyways not smiling also causes intimidation! and you know I don't want to get rejected because I'm a bodybuilder and kinda popular between friends and at the gym, I feel that would bring my confidence down to get rejected and id be like bitch who the hell are you to turn me down ? so I don't like to approach ...You knoww ?? I'm kinda cocky too (... I just can't see myself walkin to a girl and playing all those games because id think Id look funny cuz Im da man ! kinda farked up in the head lol
any advice on how I can change myself ?