Best describe my personality 5 years ago was monotone, little words, self concious. Im now confident (atleast I pretend to be), and my personality has turned into a cocky/funny mentality (pre pua), and since starting PUA my Approach Anxiety is now gone and I always got a little tense around HB8-10, that is now gone.
Although the same problem that has always been there is still here. Connecting. I can talk to girls, make them laugh, with that cocky/funny mentality. But cannot connect. Holding a conversation for more than a few minutes is very hard. Being interesting is also very hard for me. And connecting emotionally making a person feel good is also very hard.
Yesterday for example at a party I was talking to some girl her bf was there. I was already introduced so didnt run an opener. I had good social proof because there was only 15 people there and I knew every single one of them, and everyone talked to me at some point. Talked a bit got to know her, made her laugh but after a few minutes, I started to draw blanks on things to say and didnt want it to fizzle out so just ejected on a high point and then went and talked to some guy I just met about random shit. I always do this.
There was another girl there who I had already met a week prior her bf was there too. Besides saying hi to her, I didnt strike a convo with her, because I wouldnt know what to say. Since shes a friend most routines wouldnt work as everyone knew my ex gf is not from LA who surgically cracked her jaw so she could have a C smile.
Basically I can shoot shit with any guy, but fail hard to talk for long periods with woman and seem interesting. Everytime ive gotten female attention/sex has usually been from an overload of extremely cocky/funny/high social proof/maybe some Kino.
Ive never been able to grasp that interesting/emotional connection part that allows a girl to get sucked into the convo and connected.