Ok this report starts off with me having just finished a workout and stopping by a cafe to drink some seriously caffeinated coffee. Anyways I see this cute girl in the corner of the shop reading. People are constantly coming up to her and hanging out. Its like shes friends with everyone.
Im a big believer in situational openers. Something that naturals do and since thats my game, its all i will do. So I ask this girl what shes reading. She instantly tells me its a bible, it has so many sticky notes in it that i honestly thought it was a large planner.
I look at her a second and bring this up and I follow it with my honest opinion of christianity. That I feel their are too many people that believe their christian and just where the cross but never read it. So we talk for an hour about our varying view of the world. How I always had a hard time believing religion and how I believe I control my fate and she tells me all the evidence for the existence of god.
First off I did start this conversation with the intention of coming in under the radar. I obviously am not a religious type, and definitly not a good boy. (if theres anybody with a more farked up view of the world on here I'll be surprised.)
But as im talking to her I become less attracted to her and more interested genuinely in who she is and her body language is indicating she is feeling the exact same way.
At this point I imagine the caffeine kicked in and I ended up telling her everything about my life. How I have multiple girls im dating, how i can be manipulative. She just smiles and nods.
I tell her I'd like to be friends but we are so different I don't know how good we really could be. She follows this up with shes never met anybody else like me and that we are more similar than I think.
Thats where I think I blew it. She had no idea exactly how terrible I am at tricking women into loving me. I told her about how I changed myself over the years and how even my body language was controlled and I was reading her in kind.
I told her about a girl that was texting me at the time and how I was not really interested in her, I just like the unconditional love from her and that I was trying to figure out what I did to her so I could use it on other women.
At this point she starts pursing her lips. I farked up I let her see too much of who I was and she didnt like it. I did get her number on the high of the conversation, but honestly I dont think I'm going to use it. I've never felt like more of an evil human being than I do right now. This is going to sound very unalpha but I think she would be much better off in her life without somebody like me in it.
This is how I think. I am an advent player at the game of life. I guess this is what made me successful when it came to the game, the fact that I see everything as a game.