I am at the place where I started many years ago. The whole purpose for becoming a man that women would be attracted to and find desirable was to find a life long partner. I was looking for Ms Right, the illusive soulmate, my partner in crime, my clone, my wife. Although I never married, I've been in four LTR, two with Ms Right & two w/Ms Right Now.
Who is Ms Right Now? She is a woman that you like and get along w/very well except your love for them isn't the same as it is for Ms Right.
Who is Ms Right? She's the one that you feel you can't live w/out. She's the one that can't do anything wrong in your eyes. She the one that can put your yarbaughs in a clamp but doesn't, the one that finishes your sentences, the one you two give each other the same Xmas gift, the only one that can make you cry.
I want someone to be a witness to my life, and I their's. I want to sit in front of a cozy fire and talk w/my soulmate about all the things we did and still want to do.
I am focusing my efforts on just one woman at the moment. It's challenging because she's not completely unattached. We have a past, a wonderful past. It's a waiting game now.