Alright so I was told that my thread apparently got so popular that people started adding viruses
Well here I am again trying to start fresh so let's get to it.
Mar 17 2010
A little recap from a report posted on "fack another failed kiss close" thread. I was approached by a friend of a friend of mine whose name is Zar. She gave me that sticky girl vibe and was extremely open about sex. Within a few days she almost laid it out that I can do whatever I wanted to her. My goal of learning PUA is to learn the necessary skills to have choice in the types of women I want to be with.
For those who have somewhat mastered PUAism will understand that if a girl threw herself at you free of charge and gave you direct access to her p*ssy your willingness to continue to date her and to work for her will significantly decline.
I've decided to give this girl a try because no girl has ever been this close to me ever and I'd have first experience on kiss all the way to potentially farking.
I've asked Instinct for advice on how to handle her what I should consider this relationship as. Instinct's answer was pretty direct. It was simply "No commitment fark, stay friends / leave". She was desperate in setting up a date with me so I decided to give it a go and we met up last night.
I noticed something weird when my friend Ayu (Zar's best friend who introduced us) started calling/msging me after that night. I wanted to find out what Zar's all about before I make any level of commitment so I asked her information and felt I had a better understanding of this girl.
This is a girl with quite a bit of problems within her family and has had many messed up relationships. I don't want to disclose too much of her information here, but it's safe to say that she's been through quite a bit. Either way, she doesn't seem to have her life worked out (not the type that we as PUAs would expect).
Ayu then asks me what I would expect a girl I like to be. I started naming out pretty much what's written here on the forums:
- A woman who can take care of herself
- A woman that has a life (social with others)
- A woman who's interesting
- A woman who's not a gold digger
- A woman who has self-esteem and self respect (non-sticky)
The next day, Zar became a completely different person. She stopped calling and texting as often (although she'd still call me way before our actual meeting time) but she seemed to have significantly improved. I talked to Ayu only to find that she's leaked all the info I gave to her right at Zar.
Our date was decent, but it felt weird cause she kept saying that she wanted to pay and that she's not a gold digger which imho made our date kinda weird.
We went into the theaters and what Zar really wanted was for me to fark her. Half way into the movie, she started to put my hands on her breasts again and resting her arm on my penis. I'm not going to lie, things got pretty heated there. I don't think there'd be a guy who can have absolutely no reaction.
But all I thought about was wanting to finger her (she said she likes it) and I didn't feel that it was right to have sex with her (even though Instinct would totally go for it). I asked her if she wants to be fingered and she said yes. We went through many weird awkward movements to get my hand there without others being able to see us. I was only able to rub her from the outside.
The movie soon ended and we went to a quiet area int the mall and she started holding me really tight and kissing me. This was a kiss close!! I thought a kiss close was supposed to be some setup Hollywood moment but it wasn't at all. The kiss was nice though and it was interesting to learn from a pro.
After a while we settled on a sofa at the mall and I started reaching in. She was really wet. It was hard for me to go any deeper than just the opening due to really tight pants but she seemed to enjoy it and I watched as she got really high. While I was fingering her, we started talking and she told me she wants me to be inside her.
I told her that I wanted to be friends only even if I did, but she said she wanted a relationship (which made no sense to me). After a while of failing to convince me, she stops me and said that what we're doing isn't right. She told me she wanted a solid relationship (Instinct told me that's a lie).
She even suggested for me to go over to her house on our next date to fark her. I don't know, it just didn't feel right and I didn't want to sell myself that low for sex so I declined. I told her I wanted to get to know her better. After all, I could test out to see if Instinct's theory is true (sorry Instinct, I had to see for myself to believe).
We kissed and even had a bit of tongue action and parted. I don't know guys, I just feel something isn't right with where I'm going. My mom went nuts after knowing what is happening and kept selling her out of my life. In a calm sense when I've thought about it, she wanted sex, attachment, and she's not the type that can handle it, I'm really worried that it will backfire.
She's definitely not the type I want for a girlfriend. I can't imagine my girlfriend just willing to put herself on a plate and beg a guy to fark her with absolutely no resistance.
So there I have it, k-close established. Felt very nice and now even had a first handed experience of how a really wet p*ssy feels like. I was surprised, however, that it wasn't as good as I thought it would feel. It's as if my imagination is the reason why it's placed on a pedestal.
- Great experience since I'm a noob
- k closed (Not quite what I was expecting, but now know how it feels)
- Had a lot of cuddling moments
- Got to know a bit better what type of girl I'd like
- Zar is probably not suitable for me
- Could've been more stronger in my frame to hold her hand first instead of having her to initiate
All of this helped me gain knowledge into how to hold a girl right, how to seduce a girl (since she's using my hand to please herself). It will help in my future game definitely and I'm grateful for this experience. I've made no commitments and probably will break up with her on our next meeting.
I see that she's suppressing herself hard to "please me" which isn't what I wanted. I wanted a REAL girl, not a pre-programmed robot. I wanted her to be happy as well because it's painful for both sides to try to be together if nothing's working out.
Comments? Feedback? All welcomed.