I first discovered the community about 5 or 6 years ago with The Game. I got all into it and read everything I could and started going out and trying some of the stuff but i had a lot of sticking points. Then i got fired from one of the jobs i held and then the other(over a women i was in love with) and then started my own business. Then my mother died after almost all the rest of my family had died and i went into a deep depression and just quit the game. I've struggled in business for the last 5 years with almost no success and no success with relationships iether. My whole life has been centered around raising my son, he's 8 now, and recently my ex-wife started dating a karate master who he seems to like more than me. I was hopeful about a relationship with a girl who worked for me that expressed attraction but i blew it and today i saw her and she wouldn't even look at me. My final hope for my business seems to be hopeless and now I feel the same. I lost my license after i got a dwi about 2 months ago and i can't go anywhere to practice sarging. I live in the middle of nowhere so the mass transit system is out. I have no money, no friends, and i'm even loosing my son to some asshole that's banging my ex-wife. I really don't have any hope left but I don't want to die. Life is like torture. Everyday is another lonely struggle. I don't know what else to do or try and I'm not even sure why i'm writing this because i feel like no one will even bother to reply. I've worked so hard for so long to better myself and my situation but nothing has worked and I'm just tired. really tired. Can anyone offer something useful? I really don't want to leave my son but I just don't think i can keep this up much longer.