first, sorry for my bad english.
hope you all understand and try to help me.
with 10, yes, 10 years old I had my first girl friend for 3 months, it was just a child play.
first girlfriend... and the LAST.
I become the most shame man at these things.
now, 12 years later (today), my life is only play video games and go to college (dont have a job, I'm TRYING to get).
I'm falling in love for a girl, and it started 6 years ago...
it was love at first saw, and it was in a church. about one year just seeing her, never aproach.
one word: Shame.
and this year passed so when I tried to talk to her. he answer very fast and leave me like nothing.
yes, she knew I was interested in her...
in this time I suffered a great loss that I can't say here. but never stop thinking about her
more one year, tried again. and the same thing...
but one miraculous day we talked a lot, and started to became friends...
in this time I was a lot nervous and asked to a great friend come to the church and help me.
my friend got her contacts and they become good, good friends.
but he is a player (now I know this term) so I think he tried to get her.
months later this girl and me still talking normal, but she always forget me, only when we meet she remember -.-
and my friend beeing more friendly, going out with her
later I waas revolted with the church, don't accepted their doctrines and leave. this was the unique place we meet.
the contact of us gone to the junk, we met very very low and fast.
these times my friend still going out with her, saying he never saw her with anyone.
but time has passed and my friend started to talk BAD of her, and I always defending.
I don't know why, but I wanted to see the truth.
was she falling in love to him? its okay, I'd never get angry because of it.
I got ways to see whats happening. can't tell, but you can supose.
so what I saw was:
- she asks a lot him to go out;
- she pokes him (lol);
- he talk false things for me.
this time I discovered the Pandora's Box.
her type I think is Hopefull romantic (NDI)
so I decided to show all the truths, when I asked him if he THINKS she like him, he gone angry and crazy.
saying things like: you crazy, psycothic etc
and 30 minutes later I saw him acting as victim to girls I never even met, saying things like:
"remember the girl I said likes me? my friend that falls in love to her saw something and yelled to me!! (GREAT LIE)
my life is hard!!! "
later I called him and show these things, he opened and said everything (that HE THINKS she like him)
I decided this day to stop talk with these 2.
but I couldnt. I wanted to tell her the truth.
called her and said "I want to tell you something, I promisse I never talk to you again if you want"
she was scared to hear it from me, and come to my house.
I said EVERYTHING. when I said that he thinks she loves him, she normaly said "its wrong, he's only my friend."
"I and my friends even think he's gay" (lol)
and I sugested we stop talking with each other, she said "no no, we are friends" (but talking was very rare anyway)
we talked for 3 hours, and I really discovered that everything I felt was true, the woman I ever imagined her to be
and desired. she saids I have to go out more and get a work to forget about it. she said I'm sincere.
great eye contact (thing I never did before) and she said "I'm ashamed"
hold her hand and she hug me...
called her days later, we talked 20 minutes.
called another day, and she was acting like she don't want to talk to me
so... its 3 months now of nothing.
and she is still her friend and going out! (hope he is just her gay friend)
and I still love her, I can't forget her even if we had nothing!
sincerely, can you guys help me? I have mental problems is it? I act like a child, just playing video games,
never meeting other girls, never going out? this case have solution?
according the pandoras box her type is NDI, I'm almost certain of it
please, I accept all tips, be sincere please please!
I'm new in these things of pua, BUT I LOVE HER!
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