Re: About to breakdown. Need big help
I would like to make and observation and offer some solutions to one of the comments that you have just said above.
Basically, you state that 'you feel ugly and that because of this you don't talk to girls but that you are 'waiting' for them, i.e. expecting them to come and talk to you'.
My answer will be in two parts:
1. Because you feel ugly you will be displaying/projecting this via your body language. People, including girls, will subconsciously pick up on this and feel uncomfortable around you.
So, how do you correct this? Firstly, like The Red Baron correctly says, stop thinking that you are ugly. You are not!! Everyone is unique and there will be girls out there that are attracted to you.
Secondly, improve your confidence. Think and focus on the good qualities that you have. Go and buy some new clothes/get a new hair style, etc., if this helps you to feel confident about yourself!
Thirdly, study/read-up on body language. Observe your own and that of the people around you. What is your/their body language saying about there inner state?? Then when you get good at this, start to change your own to project the Alpha man that you are!
2. You expect girls to approach you.
This is generally not the way it is! And this is how it should be. You are the Alpha male and go after what you want! Girls will send out IOI's and expect a man to pick up on them and then to go and approach them; it is an invitation to approach (this is where studying body language will help!).
Secondly, you don't have to have IOI's and you can still approach and open them. You can then create/build attraction by DHV/social proof, etc. and also using kino. Kino should be really easy to do at a party, as everyone is moving about and they are usually quite busy!
Finally, don't try to achieve all these things like 'be the guy that guys want to be' and 'be the guy that girls think is a real babe'. BE YOURSELF and don't concern yourself with what other people think of you. Actually, you shouldn't give a sh!t what anyone else thinks of you. Learn to be and accept yourself as you are and be completly free from others opinions of you and then 'you will really begin to have fun in this life and enjoy yourself'!!!!
Because you will do what pleases you (as long as it does not hurt someone else!) like approaching hot girls and talking to them. If there not interested, you won't care and move straight onto the next one! Because, you know, there are MILLIONS of them in this world!!!
Hope this helps. Best wishes.
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