Re: I need help with morale, I feel like i'm living a lie
You're setting your goals too high. No one gets good at this overnight. Set smaller goals. Such as getting a woman to laugh. Then getting her to touch you. Then move onto getting her to give you the phone number. Don't even worry about kissing, let alone sex, for now.
How do you know they want to get rid of you?
The best practicing grounds are bars and nightclubs. Try those before going to day game.
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