How do I deal with this since I am really screwed. Well, I met this great girl in college. Very pretty(easy 9) and on the last day of our post graduation ceremony she asked me out stating that we looked great together. Anyway, I was a bit flustered back then since all that talk about marriage and stuff caught me off guard. Although it wasn't the first time a girl was asking me out - but it was not someone this pretty.I genuinely liked her. I feel like dr frankenstein, really coz I might have ruined a great thing that was happening to me.
Anyway, a year later we become friends on facebook and start seeing each other.4 dates in all. Everything's going great - . Then I get a neurotic relapse wherein I send in a stupid message on facebook that's one of the most defining epic fail moments of my life.
"I am just writing this so that we can understand each other better since we are friends. r. U knw when I first saw u I wasn't really attracted to u. I mean u have big eyes, big lips and sometimes u scare the living crap outta me. But u knw there is a sense of familiarity with u. U remind me of my old self. I really don't think that looks are that important and ur a great person.I am a bit crazy myself and I do crazy stuff like learning to be a Pick Up Artist"
I pressed the sent button and it was gone.I wanted to unsend it but there is no way u can do that on fb.
Alrite she responded...I"ll change the words so it isn't u know traceable "I never told you that you are actually falling for me .... a mere sms or msg on facebook doesnt make u love me.... if u feel uncomfortable with me then plz let me kw i wont trouble u anymore... i m very jolly and cheerful many a times even i don't even realise what m i saying or doing...i do things just bcz i like it..... i nvr ever try to impress any1....anywayz ....tc"
I write back telling that she's great and blah, blah but she is obviously pissed off. Now, I really like her and it is one of those moments in my life when I regret my impulsive behaviour and stupidity. Can I salvage this thing in any way possible?
I don't even feel like Sarging even though I am actually good at it. I am not stupid in general but this whole experience makes me re-evaluate everything I know about myself. I even wonder if I was possessed when I wrote that tripe. Hope this post remains coherent and I really appreciate any constructive feedback. Spoke to my best friend whose also a chick and she was pretty mad when she heard it.
Okay, my best friend(also a girl) after terming me as an 'irredemable arse' also tells me that from her response it seems like she knows I am friggin' nuts. So I should probably cool off and call her on friday. Test the waters a little bit. What do u guys think I should say?...I am not sure how bad the situation since it is pretty much like schodinger's cat right now.