didn't answer her text message, assuming she'd show up sooner or later. Then after maybe 2h she called me asking if I'd come and got kinda pissed when I said that we're already there. I told her since she brought it up, I figured she knew time n place, and blocked her further blabla by "anyways, we're here, cya in a bit".
good maintaining of your frame there, don't take her bs if she already knew the time and date, some people play nice
as if they didn't know she knew even though she invited them - i don't, its fqking stupid
Realizing she's most likely already farking that guy shocked me to the bone, but I somehow managed to show no reaction.
good move, act like you don't care, you shouldn't
that evening, we made a limited bit of smalltalk, occasional short eye contacts where I tried throwing in a bit of triangular gaze while consciously not facing her with my body. I also had my knee "coincidently" touch hers a few times, other than that we pretty much spent the evening isolatedly next to each other.
if you wanted to make her uncomfortable intentionally that was a way to do it, if your goal was kino, that wasn't the way to do it
to sum up your end points
look for other women, don't be afraid to risk your entire relationship it's pretty unstable at the moment from what i'm hearing mainly because of -->her<--
if she chooses another guy over you it's on her and you have every right to do the same,
as for your trust part, i'll give you an example from mine, pretty much i was dating this chick unofficially, eventually found out she would cheat on me because that was just her, so i ended it, i never trusted her again, this
was primarily because of who she was and how she thought about relationships
relating this to you, it takes 2 people to be in a relationship each earning one each others trust, but ultimately you need to have complete trust in one another from the beginning, slightest doubt can fqk things up completely and will end up being a waste of your time if you're looking for personality
you can't just have you trusting her, or her trusting you where you doubt whether she sees other guys and sh1t
let her know you don't give a fqk about her and you're not waiting around, she should be wanting to be with you aswell