Ok let's start...
Im 19 years old and i've never been good with girls, because of shyness and so on.. also i used to get depressed when i see beautiful girl and bull$hits like these..
Then one day after a birthday(which wasn't in my town) i got on the train and because i've been very emotional that day..i didnt look in which cabin i sat, just chose a random 1
there was a girl...i sat right infront of her. Then go out of the cabin to take some shots at the sunset. When i came back i decided that it's finally time to fk this fear and start talking. and you know i did this for the first time in my life.. i was like superman on steroids. We had MANY commmon things, also she was going to be in a university in my town=she will live here for sometime. At somepoint i proposed to help her accommodation, and then i wrote her my number cuz my battery was down... talked about 3 hours and then on the train station we split.
3 days later she call's we go out and everything was fine i guess i hadn't any fear or anxiety. i've been striking her at random places in the town just by chance and that was awesome, we laughed alot when those things happen.
We've been going out about 4 times and on the last one i took her at a very romantic and beautiful place from which we can see the sea and the whole town. There is a parking lot infront of the whole view so she could see it before we are out of the car so.. i told her "Close your eyes, and i'll tell you when to open them" - OK.
my idea was to grab her hand and walk her to the view then kiss her(with her eyes closed) and then she would see the fking view. But ofcourse i said her to open her eyes and threw some random sh!t(f^ck me... srsly..ill never listen to anybody..) We stayd a bit and then we got back to town. I left her to her place.. again tried to do something but anxiety at this moment came too much for my pu$$y brain.
before that i met a friend of my and asked him if u should kiss her(wtf) of course he told me to not i listened to him because i thought he had more expirience with girls.(f^ck me)
Ever since we was talking on the phone sometimes, skype etc.. and about 3 days ago i think i screw it up totally.
I was bored in graphics class and wrote her a "romantic massage with rhymes" XD she did't answer this, also tried to call her 3 times= nothing. Also i asked her to go to the cinema, she said yes but its' not 100% sure. then the other day called her to ask if she is free, and she said no of course..
and that night i found ur forum and red about 3 hours.
I found that i was doing many of the right thing's unconsciously, but because my lack of expirience i didn't manage to see most of her signs and the situation which i could use to do something.(which now are pretty clear to me)
also 1 time i tried to write my own magnetic message which sparks an emotion in the girl.... She called me back and she was loling she liked it very much(havent red any products at all)
if there is something u dont understand or want to ask to be all clear please ask, and give me some advice if there is a chance to get her attracted again.
I think im in love or something.. or its just cuz its the first girl i "date". dreamed her 6 times for 7 days and got depressed several times very hard because i didnt know what to do
also i am those kind of... romantic guy.. i think that i should reduce that because its huge
ok i need to go now cya