Lately, I've been enjoying stepping out of my comfort zone and interacting with a lot of different women and n-closing, but there's always one that stands out and I think I'm catching feelings (or will shortly) and it's messing a lot with my inner game, I guess.
Met her a few months ago and got cockblocked (the phrase was, "Oh, is he seducing you, too?") by a girl who got jealous (never tried gaming her). I got her name, but that was it. Hung out in a group with her a few weeks ago, but didn't recognize her. Played it off well. Kind of had a fresh start.
We were in the same area around campus for a few hours a couple of days ago, but I pretended I didn't notice her and all. N-closed that day. Waited until today to text her, met up for lunch. Noticed a lot of IOIs, but kept it down on the kino (random high fives and a hug goodbye) because, well, I'm not sure. I'm probably focused too much on impressing her (she's applying to med school, whereas I dropped the premed stuff for the NYPD) because I'm actually interested, and that's not cool. I tried DHVing a bit with some EMT stories, which wasn't bad at all. I'm not at my best around her, but I'm not bad, either.
Texted her a bit, and came off sounding like a fool. This happens when I'm really into someone. I prefer face to face in situations like this. I already have her on a pedestal in my mind, so I'm not really sure how to knock her down.
Also, here's some of the text convo:
Me - Hey =]
Her - Hey just got home. What's up?
Me - Typical school night. How's the party without you?
Her - I don't know but I wish I was there
Me - Probably not a party without you =p If you're feeling like a badass, show up and demand cake.
Her - Lol
Me - What are you up to?
Could have said most of it differently, but this is how bad my text game gets when I'm...whatever the hell this is lol.
Any ideas, thoughts, etc? Thanks!