So I'm currently in college and so is my ex GF. We dated for 4 years before splitting because of "long distance" (she goes to another college about 3 hours away.....but I know it was because I was an AFC and the relationship got stale. This was 2 months ago.
More important back story: she is a virgin, and in our 4 years dating she was certain that she wanted to wait until marriage. In the bedroom we did everything (and I mean everything) but actual sex.
When we broke up I resisted the urge to contact her and became obsessed with PU, Im actually quite good. These last two months I have had more women in my life than I could ever dream of.
My ex called me about a month after the break up to see if I wanted to meet for drinks, I agreed and when we did I showed her how much I have improved myself, I became the most interesting person in the bar that night and even had girls coming up to our table. This of corse was all to put on a show for my ex that I really still love and cant get over no matter how many girls I sleep with.
Anyway tonight she called me (a month later) and wants to know if I still think about her because I never call or text her. I tell her Im staying busy but yes I still think about her. I remain fun and keep her asking questions about me. She tells me that she hopes we will end up together in the future and she cant stop think about me. We end up talking longer than expected and she ends up telling me that she has been very horny lately and wants to loose her virginity. She says their is noone else she would think of loosing it to besides me. We both have winter break from college soon and wants to meet up and screw then.
I was very taken back and didnt know what to say so pulled so stupid cocky funny sexual joke that actually broke the random tension she brought to the conversation. When she said her proposal I said "thats hard" she said "why would that be hard" and I followed with "im talking about my penis right now". She laughed.
I then told her that I would love to screw her brains out but she dumped me and she cant just call me for sex now that she wants it.
She quickly apologized and said that she see how bad that came off. I ended the conversation with a little fun teasing and told her I need to go.
PROBLEM: I want to sleep with her, I want her back, and even though I have this new skill that has been getting me laid weekly it all is meaningless sex to me. I love her still and do not want to just sleep with her like these other girls and then thats it. I want her back but I know right now in our lives this is not the best time. Any advice...thoughts... comments. I just needed people to hear this problem, I cant stop thinking about it.