Re: Becoming Alpha? I am like half the time.
Alpha doesn't necessarily mean happy. You can be angry and still be alpha. If you are asking how to be happy, outgoing, and energetic all the time then that is a tall order. We all have our down or off days. It's normal and it's fine.
As for reflecting, I can say the only growth I've ever done is when I took the time to reflect on my mistakes or successes. Even if I use some strange "pickup line" that gets a few good responses I will automatically reflect in that moment with "Hey. I guess this actually works."
But I do believe there is a thin line between reflecting....and dwelling. I've seen beginners do nothing BUT reflect and their inner game is full of unnecessary complexity. And you don't want that. Just know that reflecting is a part of growing and learning from your experiences and if you feel you are starting to ADD to it and it becomes dwelling then you can just switch your focus from internal to external.
Now about your gf. I'm going to assume that you are thinking about her so much because you felt there was something going on that was bothering her. Correct me if I'm wrong.
Maybe it was her response. Maybe it was something she said or did when you spent time together. You know how you handle that? Just ASK her. I know you may think that it's beta to ask your gf what's wrong. It's NOT!! Only if you keep nagging her on and on.
If you want to increase your chances of being social or outgoing all the time then whenever you are about to go out come up with a routine. Listen to "pump me up" music and literally look in the mirror and laugh at yourself. It's not fool proof, but it should help.
"All things are subject to interpretation. Whichever interpretation prevails at a given time is a function of power and not truth."