Hey guys, been reading the forum for a while and decided to sign up to discuss a nasty problem I have...
Terrible case of One-Itis
Been with a girl for 3 years, and in many aspects this was the perfect girl for me. On a scale from HB1 to 10, I would rate her HB11. 8 years younger than me (I'm now 34), very pretty, perfect body (matter of taste of course, but according to my kicks) and completely wild in bed. Had the best sex of my life by far with her.
Now the thing is, she's got a bit of a borderline personality. Lots of insane arguments, countless quarrels and fights - mostly verbally, although sometimes she would also take things to physical level, throwing sh1t around, etc. Extremely jealous, you know, the works. Of course there's more sides to a person, she also truly deeply loved me, would have wanted to spend the rest of her life with me, was very into me, we deeply appreciated eachother, and we've spent lots of quality time and had many great moments (also outside the bedroom).
Rationally, I know I could never become truly happy with this girl. Regardless of whether I *can* deal with a difficult personality like that, I don't *want* to, regardless of how nice or hot she was. I'm an easy-going guy and to some extent I expect the same from a woman.
Emotionally, however, sh1t keeps creeping up on me. I keep thinking how "perfect" she was, that I'll never find another girl as hot and kinky as her, you know, the self-poisoning stream of thoughts...
Have met a few other girls since (including attractive ones), had some dates, and although I didn't try to compare them or find a substitute for my ex GF, none of them came even close in the level of chemistry I felt.