A few months ago I posted about an HB9 friend of mine that I was very attracted to, and who I thought had friend-zoned me. Needless to say, I followed all the advice and it has seemed to work, I got out of the friend-zone. However, I'm worried that she is gaining control over me again, and would like to know how to gain control of the situation myself.
I went NC with this girl for two weeks and then came back into her life as a different man. No longer did I care that she was dating and hooking up with other guys, I encouraged it. At the same time I was pursuing other girls and would tell her about them/she would see me with them. Then on V-day she invited herself over to my place to cook. Two days later she invited me over to her place for breakfast and then we spend the entire day together cuddling, I went back to feeling her tits etc. Then this past week we hung out a few times and we held hands. I invited her over to my place for a movie and then I went farther than before, I unzipped her jeans and felt her up until she had an orgasm. After that we made out intensely (mind you, prior to this encounter she had never reciprocated when I kissed her). Then we tried to have sex, she put up no resistance, but I failed miserably because due to it being my first time I was nervous. We cuddled for awhile and I dropped her off. The next day we kissed in school and I left for the weekend.
She texted me 5 pics of herself this weekend and has told me that "she loves me a lot." I want a relationship with this girl, but I am scared that if I ask her for one the benefits are going to end.
How can I not mess this up? Should I keep ignoring the fact that she is still dating another guy and just enjoy the "fun" with her until she bends and asks me to go out with her (if she ever will)? Do I keep dating as well?