ACT I: The Meeting
My story begins on 3rd of June 2011. I met Vaso on a concert. I was 16
back then and Vaso was 14. Though we had been texting to each other
for weeks before the concert. This was our first face-to-face
encounter. We instantly fell in love with each other. It was like
meeting your soulmate all at once. We were talking and being so sweet
to each other. On our 3rd date I asked her to be my girl. She accepted
with our first kiss. Many weeks later I went to Platamon for the
summer. I was only a train or 30 minutes away from her. We were on the
phone every day and texting all day, since we couldn't see each other.
It was amazing! It was pure LOVE. There were times when I would visit
her. And oh boy, THOSE times were the BEST. In the middle of July, I
met a girl, Zoe and we made out for a couple of minutes. We were both
drunk. I don't know why but I didn't feel any guilt for what I had
done. On August I went on a trip to Germany. We hadn't seen each other
for 18 days! I returned on 18th August. The next day was our 2month
anniversary. Though on 19th, some random number texted me and we
started texting to each other like crazy. It was a girl I didn't know,
Jenny was her name. We were talking about extreme things like, meeting
with her when I still had my girlfriend and talking about sexual
ACT II: Uh-oh, Iceberg Ahead.
Something inside me about Vaso had now changed. I was feeling so
confused as to what to do. I didn't know what to do. I was so lost,
for the first time in my life. On 20 (anniversary) Vaso came to
Platamon. She told me how mush she wanted to meet me(because of the
anniversary thing..) but I told her NO! (because I was feeling weird &
confused apparently). I went out with my friends that night.. AND I
BUMPED INTO HER. I hugged her, kissed her and we went for a walk. She
instantly asked me if everything was ok. I told her that something
personal was happening in my life and that I could tell her. She asked
me, what can I do? I told her: "Just leave me alone(meaning I needed
time)" She left crying. I didn't talk to her for a week. On 27th I
visited my cousin and came to a decision. Break up with her. Over
Facebook(did this just because I couldn't wait till Monday to tell
her.) So there I was, single. Still texting with Jenny, prepping for
the BIG MEETING. I meat Jenny, we had a great time together. I can
pretty much say that she was the girl I wanted to marry back then. But
after our first great meeting. She disappeared. I mean literally.
Never saw her again, never heard from her again. It was like she
vanished into thin air! Looked on the school she had told me she went?
Nothing. I don't even know if Jenny was her real name.
ACT III: You are well & truly on your own.
And then there I was. Well & truly on my own. 4 months passed. Vaso
was still on the back of my mind. On December it hit me. I would get
her back. I arranged a meeting. I met her on 4th January 2012 and
after a long and convincing talk about what had gone wrong we were
back together. Something inside me though knew that it would not be
for long. You see, I had some friend issued back then. Huge issues. I
practically did not have many friends because of a huge argument. So
let's say Vaso was not my first priority. Well we had our time, I was
distant, I treated her a little bit like sh1t(meaning I would text her
whenever I wanted or go out with her and never went downtown with her,
because I felt kinda ashamed, didn't think that other people would
find her attractive (AND BELIEVE ME SHE WAS/IS!). After 2 months it
was over. The day we broke up, 17 March 2012, I sent her a message
calling her names and naming every single time I had cheated on her.
And after that, I didn't speak to her for another 2 months.
ACT IV: How about a third chance?
All those 2 months I didn't event think of her, I mean I felt fine.
Just fine. On 20th May she poked me on Facebook. We started texting
again and before I knew it we had arranged a meeting. On the first
meeting I didn't exactly know if I wanted her back so I didn't ask her
to be with me. She left crying. And a week later, we met again and
after a long and casual talk we were together. For the third and BEST
TIME. The best were about to come.
ACT V: Love is all around.
Things between me and Vaso were just perfect. I loved her more and
more everyday and she did the same. We were going for bike rides, we
went swimming together, it was amazing. PURE LOVE at its best. And we
had many great times together that I cannot refer to in detail. We
even made dreams together. That one day we would have kids, and get
married and live on a penthouse in New York. AND WE MEANT EVERY
SINGLE WORD. It was amazing. On September school started. You see I
was on the last year of high school. HERE IN GREECE WE HAVE EXAMS AT
THE END OF THIS YEAR, THEY ARE CALLED PANELLINIES. These exams
determine our FUTURE and our entrance to the University. They are just
TOO DAMN IMPORTANT. As far as Vaso is concerned, I Introduced her to
my friends, we were going out together. She had some problems with HER
friends that were hurting her and not letting her think very clearly,
but eventually she overcame everything. On November I managed to get
her Facebook account password and gave it a spin through the messages.
I found out that there was a guy at her school that she kinda liked
and she was thinking of cheating on me. But finally she called it of
because she realised how much she loved me. I told her. Then things
between us got weird. I mean we were still in love but were not
talking so obsessively like before. I even started asking and asking
her again and again insecurity questions.
*Are we going to full fill our dreams?
*How do I know that you will never think of this guy?
*Do you love me?/Will you always love me?
Imagine these and other insecurity question all the time, everyday.
She was feeling frustrated. On February 1 2013. She gave me the first
shot. Harry, she said, I wanna break up with you. Well we said about
how we will be together again this summer, after my Panellinies. First
I thought that the reason was the other guy.(Remember?) No, she was
just feeling frustrated and confused. She was even nervous because she
had ballet exams coming on March. So I didn't talk to her. The future
from there was like this:
1st Contact: She contacted me after a week, asking how I was doing and
on my name day we even went out together. I asked her to be with me
once again, start all over. She said yes. But this was kinda a testing
period after 3 days , she called it off because I was still asking her
the same crappy questions and she couldn't determine whether she
wanted to be with me or not.
WHEN WE BROKE UP THIS TIME I FELT SO SAD AND LONELY THAT I TOLD HER A
BIG LIE: I told her that my Grandma died, just to make her feel sorry
for me and come back. And there she was again, but was it just PITY?
2nd contact: After a week, we went out again and she was telling me
about something horrible she had done. On Valentines she went out
withe the other guy and she was talking to him about me. She felt
vulnerable and the other guy kissed her. She gave in only for once.
Than the other guy asked her to be with him. She said, I just want to
be with Harry.(Me!) She told me how bad she felt about that, like she
had betrayed me. And she told me that know she knew that she wanted to
be just with me. Long story short, got back together, were very happy.
But from day One, I started asking the same things over and over. Till
our anniversary day(a week after we made up), when we broke up again.
3rd Contact: She started talking to me after some days. This started
happening everyday. She really believed that I could stop asking and
change. And I believed it too. But one day she found out about the
death lie. She said: NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN!
4th contact: She calls a week later and asks how I am doing and
everything. After this call, we started talking everyday again. She
was kinda sick so I told her I would come by and treat her. I went
there, things were cold at first but when she laid to bed, I kissed
her, we started making out. I went the other day again. Things were
more passionate this time. We were cuddling, making out in bed, she
even undressed me! But I was still asking questions, whether we will
be together again. She kept replying I don't know but she was doing it
with a sweet smile like she was saying yes. On Sunday( 17 March 2013)
she had her ballet exams. She told me she did great. We were texting.
So I finally call her on Monday. She was talking in a cold way. I told
her in a very enthusiastic mood that I NOW HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS TO MY
QUESTIONS. And I have figured out that she doesn't want us to be back
together. And she replied I don't want to be with you. For now. She
said that after the exams she could think clearer and she thought
about us. And the answer was NO. But I understood that she left hopes
for the future. And that she know we will be together again. After
the classic question thing, we hang up and haven't talked ever since.
CONCLUSION: IN THE FIST 2 TIMES WE WERE TOGETHER SHE WAS OBSESSED WITH ME AND I TREATED HER LIKE A COMPLETE JERK. ON THE THIRD TIME I FELL IN LOVE WITH HER AND SHE STILL IS BUT I BECAME NEEDY AND CLINGY. MY EXAMS ARE IN 2 MONTHS. WHEN I FINISH MY EXAMS, I
WILL GO ASK HER TO BE WITH ME AGAIN. OK WE SWITCHED ROLES. SHE HAS ALL
THE POWER NOW. I AM THE DOORMAT OR THE P***Y. THE FIRST 2 TIMES SHE
WAS OBSESSED AND I WAS THE DUMPER. NOW I AM OBSESSED. BUT I KNOW SHE
STILL LOVES ME BECAUSE WE HAVE A VERY STRONG BOND AND HAVE LIVED
THROUGH THE UNBELIEVABLE TOGETHER. I HAVE SILENTLY INITIATED NC ON
HER. WHAT I KNOW IS THAT SHE WILL DEFINITELY TEXT ME OR CALL ME IN
SOME DAYS OR WEEKS. I WAS THINKING IF SHE TEXTS I SHOULD NOT REPLY,
BUT HOW WILL THAT MAKE HER FEEL.? (WILL SHE CONTACT ME AGAIN IF I DO
SO?)ONLY IF SHE CALLS ME I WAS THINKING ABOUT ANSWERING AND PLAYING IT
COOL. IN THESE 2 MONTHS I WILL NOT CONTACT HER AT ALL., I WILL ONLY
WAIT FOR HER. TO CONTACT ME. WHAT DO YOU THINK I SHOULD DO? I MEAN I
DESPERATELY WANT HER BACK. PLEASE LET ME KNOW OF YOUR OPINION. AND
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR READING.