Hey folks, long time no see
So my now ex ended it a couple nights ago.
The relationship was going on a year and a half, the last four months of it long distance (7 hours apart)
I noticed her hiding her relationship status on Facebook, reading, but not replying right away to my texts (in the past it would be immediate), and generally showing other signs of distance.
We were planning for a future together, and on a regular basis (multiple times per day) would text and tell each other things like "you're the love of my life", "I can't wait to start out family together", "how do you want to raise our kids", etc etc. We'd frequently talk and plan out our future together. She had met my family, all of it, and did very well with them, on multiple occasions.
Within a week or two all of this essentially came to a halt.
One night I brought it all up as I was concerned, and she showed no interest (failure to maintain eye contact, fidgeting and doing her nails while we were talking) etc. Blatant signs that she had no respect for me any more.
She said we needed 24 hours, so we took it.
At the end of the 24 hours she said it was over. I asked her after all we'd said if she was willing to work though the problems, she basically said no. I'm chocking this all up to maturity level (I'm 23, she's 21, and california girl 21 at that)
The way I see it the distance got the best of her, and she started talking to someone else.
She sent me a one liner text the next night saying something along the lines of "hope you're doing okay"
I replied with "hope you're doing okay as well"
I've been catatonically depressed and fell asleep at 6 pm when I got home, and slept till 6 am, at which point I didn't have the will to get out of bed and slept till 10am.
When I woke I saw she sent me a text at around 1 am (my old bedtime) that said "Michael.."
I replied the next morning at 6 am with "Yes?"
followed by "Good morning. Have a good day at school"
She replies at 8:47 am "Not talking to you is killing me.."
10:40 I reply "I kinda feel the same way" <-bad call on my part but im in a bad place remember
immediate reply from her "I know you hate me, Im sorry."
I reply "I don't hate you" "I'm sorry I didn't make you feel that way."
which doesn't make complete sense but I think you guys know what I was going for
Her final reply "You deserve the best Michael, because you"
next text from unfinished previous
"Are the best."
That last statement really pissed me off because I feel like she's directly belittling me and masking it as a complement.
I'm going to the doctor as soon as I get $ for anti-depressants and anti-anxiety.
I'll be frequenting the boards again to refine my PUA technique.
And yeah, not gonna lie, maybe I'm a novice, but it hurts. Real bad.