Re: Incredibly low self confidence/self esteem....Help desperately needed
Appearance in general takes time and you have to play with it. I used to and still have a lot of the same issues as you. I have to deal with a lot of different anxieties and what not regularly as well.
One thing I have found to help you is to ACCOMPLISH something. Not because you have to but because you want to do it. How many people really HAVE to learn to play an instrument? They do it because its fun. Find some little hobby (other than gaming, reading, computers etc) that will actually get other people involved. For instance a lot of my friends enjoy sitting around and listening while I am practicing a song on guitar.
Don't expect an over night fix for your issues, they are deep mental issues and mainly revolve around you learning to accept yourself. I have been in this process over a year now and I'm still no where close to where I want to be...but I am better then I was. Learning to accept myself is a very hard thing and its almost a rollercoaster ride at times, and you should be ready for the same thing brother.
Hang in there, hold your head up and slowly you will start to place value in yourself. One thing I do is write in a journal a few times a week before bed. It helps put me in the mode to sleep as well as get my thoughts on paper. You can later read it too and see how much you have improved. I just started this a couple months ago and I have noticed how my writings went from the girl of the week to almost completely about myself and my inner emotions and feelings as well as the path I am taking and that it is truly what I want.
Feel free to shoot me a PM any time you are going crazy over this stuff man and I would be happy just to read for the sake of you getting some of this stuff out, as I realize how harsh this situation can be, but once you get the momentum going its a lot easier to keep it.
KISS - Keep it Stupid Simple