I already explained the story in other topics, but I'll summarize it here: I have this long time female friend and we ended up kissing one day, while we were drunk. A couple of days after that I went to her place and tried to kiss her again, but got rejected.
After the rejection we didn't speak to each other for about 2 weeks. Then we've met each other by accident trough another dude who is a common friend of ours, and we all went to a bar. At the bar, this dude wanted to hit on some chicks, and wanted me to be his wingman, so I played along. She got a little bothered and left by herself, making some excuses.
After that she had some issues with her family and we didn't meet for another 2 weeks. But 2 days ago she texted inviting me to a party. I said yes, but after that she explained me that the plan was to meet her male friend and a group of people at a bar first. I didn't like the idea, and told her I was staying home, but she insisted a lot, and I ended up going.
When we got there, there were 3 dudes at the table. I stayed there talking to this 2 dudes that I didn't know, while she stayed flirting with her "friend".
We left there and I had to take her back home. While at the car, she told me she was sorry, so I guess she knew what she did, but I tried to be cool, and told her it wasn't a big deal.
The thing is I regret having said that big time! It was a big deal! That was the first time she asked me out after she rejected me (wich was only like a month ago), and she insisted me to go to a place where she went to flirt with another dude. WTF was that about? I know her for years now, we've been friends for so long. It's understandable if she doesn't wanna be with me, but why do something like that?? I would never do that to her, ever. And she didn't wanna drive that day, because she was going to drink, so what I'm guessing (of course I might be wrong) is that she insisted me to go so that she would have someone to drive her there.
So now, after 2 days of being depressed, I'm better.. but now I'm simply pissed off.. not only by what she did, but by my reaction.. I feel like I should have said something completely different.. I simply wanna get it out, and tell her what I think about her and what she did. I can't stop thinking about it.
So 2 questions:
1) I explained the story as detailed as possible. By what I wrote, why do you guys think she did that? Just to be mean? To make me jealous? Or to drive her there?
2) How can I tell her all that I'm thinking without sounding like a needy chump? I don't even wanna be with her after that, I honestly don't. I just wanna get it out and make sure that she knows what I think for the sake of peace of mind. But we haven't been talking very frequently, and I wanna do that as soon as possible. I even thought about sending her a big message, but probably it would be better to tell her face to face. Would that be a bad idea? Any tips on how I could do it?
Thanks a lot for the help.