I met this girl who is much older then me. We went on 2 dates and I had 2 random encounters with her in our town. We went on dates before these 2 but we stopped talking for a while in between. First date went great ,second date I got all the signals to kiss her but I wussed out and didn't got for it. On the second random encounter she showed all the body language of being able to k - close her, but instead I wussed out again and kissed her on the cheek instead and left. Now thing is we had an argument last night and had said that I said something she labeled as "rude" and started getting all upset and angry, she is never like that however. The last few texts she said "Please don't text me anymore," "I have a boyfriend now and I am focusing everything on that" (which I know is untrue). Now I frantically texted back next day once I saw them and like a fool I started to explain myself a little and apologized which I know was wrong. fark me. So I stopped texting and she did not reply back to any of them and several hours ago she resorted to emailing me. She said " She's not mad and has been sensitive lately and did not appreciate me throwing back her words in her face." She ended it with saying she wants space to focus on her education, and said to email her anytime. Then she sent me a second email saying that on Monday she will drop off the USB I lent her and maybe put something else in like a book or movie as a Christmas present... I don't even celebrate it... then ended it "with have a good one"...
How bad did I fark up here... ._.
Can I possibly fix this?
And what should I do if she comes by on Monday, should I just avoid her or... I don't know I'm so hopeless.
Help Please, I really like this girl, seriously everything I wanted in a girl... ugh fark me
I'm dying inside and going crazy right now can I still get her?