First, thanks in advance to those reading this and providing advice.
I have a particular story, which led me today in a bad situation, and I am unsure what to do, I'll try to make it brief.
Met a girl 2 years ago during summer, chemistry was instantaneous, we went all the way, probably the best summer of my life. She was in my city only for the summer however, and for the first year following, we were long distance and kept in touch very regularly. The distance began to affect me at some point in the sense that I got interested to meeting new women, which I did, and got intimate with 4 women in a short amount of time. This was a big hit to our relationship as even though we were not official, she was being loyal to me and said I should have been just as loyal.
We did stop talking for a while, after which we started to hang out again. (At this point, the distance is not an issue anymore.) We got intimate and emotional again, but nothing official. She then left on a trip for the whole next summer, where the only communication I had from her was through emails. I was busy with other things during that summer, and although I was seeing some chick, nothing concrete happened, until the end of the summer where I got a one night stand. This one almost broke our relationship for good (I farked up), but she ended up asking me to be her bf instead so that this does not happen again, and I said yes. This is really what I wanted.
After a couple of months of pure happiness, the thoughts of me being with other girls started to get to her. She started to realize that she perhaps should not trust me, and ended up thinking that, despite the pure happiness we were having, I was not trustworthy and she did not want to be with me. She would raise trust issues but not make a huge deal about it, and one day, just like that, she said she could not deal with these trust issues, relating to the times I was with other women while she was loyal.
It has been tough, and I did all the possible mistakes in the last couple of days. I tried to stop her from doing it, I told her how much I was hurt, I sent her emails trying to change her mind, telling her that I've changed ( I did) I was being a solid beta bitch. The only good thing I did is accept that I farked up in the past. Fortunately, reading posts on this website made me realize how beta I was at that time (until yesterday).
I read all the threads suggesting to move on. Im fully aware that this may be the best route for me, bud I'm wondering what would be the best piece of advice to potentially get her back, since as of when her and I got official after I fucked up, I've been serious about that girl.
Thanks all, much appreciated.