Re: It doesn't matter. I'm terrified.
My suggestion is use strip clubs to work out your game. I used them as practice during college to work on my kino, rapport building and developed a strong ability to say no to things on the surface level like looks and sex appeal. I like all those things but ive learned to control it. My comfort with women is pretty high. The only part now that im actively seeking to improve is physical and verbal escalation in tandem with each other. Your goal with women is to just be friends--the way you go about making friends is what should really lure in women to want to be with you. By that i mean you need to have your personality shining in its truest form with confidence and assertiveness knowing that you are fun to be around which is exciting. Build up at strip clubs first because you need to stop seeing women as something difficult yo handle. Because these clubs are solely focused on your money--you have the right to tell a girl no and that you want a dance with another girl.the game in the strip club is much more direct and less about someone being attracted to you and more about you both know what you want--its all about both people playing their cards right.
My personal thoughts on spending $$$ on a stripper is that its worth it if you make it about the experience and take everything in as a learning curve. If you dont know what its like yo have a woman touching you or sexually teasing you then you're going to miss out on knowing how you best interact with someone you love later who is teasing you. Just because its a lap dance doesnt mean you cant touch them--its just where. Remember to treat every light as green and slowly escalate till there are red signs.
Every moment counts, get out of your head and enjoy it.