Questions About Jealousy and Trust
How can you trust your partner fully? I wonder, I feel like I can't fully trust my girl. And this thought comes from my behavior, not hers.
Let me explain... I'm used to tell small lies to my girl, especially when I need some alone time, some personal space. It should be natural you know? Everyone needs some alone time every once in a while. It shouldn't require to tell lies to get it. Even when you're happier with your partner, you need that personal space and I often need to lie to get it, because my girl gets offended when I say I need my alone time for a couple hours. So as she gets offended, I started to tell small lies, like I'm gonna go to sleep early or gonna take a long shower...
She's okay with this, I thought I was too, but turned out I'm not... If I'm telling these small lies, why won't she? How can I be sure that she'll get so used to telling lies, she'll start telling bigger lies eventually? See my confidence drop there? See what I did to myself? I can't figure out a way with this. What's the essence of pure, complete trust?
How about jealousy? I love when my girl gets jealous of me, it boosts my ego, it's a unique way for me to observe her affection towards me, but when I get jealous of her I go crazy.
For example, one of my female friends texted me while we were together with my girl. She saw the text and went jealous-bomb. I loved it, I loved the thrill, I felt like 2 babes fighting over me. On top of the world.
But I think of the worst. Yesterday her ex liked one of her facebook photos and this time I went nuts. Over a freakin' meaningless facebook like! I mean, I should know I'm the sh1t. I'm the one farking her, I'm the one who she loves. But once another dude gets into any kind of interaction with her, I'm thinking like "nah man she's mine, you aren't even allowed to look at her." What is wrong with me?
I feel like I might get many different opinions on these subjects so, fire away bros.
It's not about who I was or who I'm going to become.
It's about who I am. Do it right here, right now.