I stumbled onto Pandoras box and this community altogether when I got my 2nd real girlfriend, maybe by sheer luck but I would really not mind keeping her. I would not mind it even further if she could be the ideal girlfriend.
Rough history of myself, 21 years old, one girlfriend back in Freshmen year of High School - she broke my heart. I run my own company and I make a good amount of money on my own after dropping out of college. I didn't feel like I needed college but my computer geek nature sure could have used school as a grounds for working on my social skills. (which are terrible)
Between being 16 and then, I haven't had a sexual encounter until just shortly turning 21 after. I've had numerous sexual encounters this year..... there is a catch though. They have ALL been escorts. I've been getting my 'need' through companionship agencys (I've got a lot of money through my online business) hopefully building up enough confidence back and actually going out.
So I met this girl, she is my age. She is d TJR. She used to be a stripper. Now this girl is literally the hottest girl on the PLANET and part of the reason why I haven't met a girl is because I'm a bit shallow in the vanity department.... I love myself an exotic bombshell but I just can't seem to be invested in anything less than a HB8.5 psychologically. I have to be intensely sexually attracted to a woman to even think about putting another minute of effort.
Met her through an Agency. I know I'm not the run in the mill client either... we seem to click really well. I know she is interested in my money, that is forsure. but I think it has grown in many genuine ways because of how much time we have spent together and all the little things she tells me how I get under her skin, how she can't remember the last time a guy who has looked at her the way I looked at her before.
She has cried several times over the course of our meetings and I no longer pay for her 'services', she doesn't service me anymore. We go out to eat, go shopping, I don't pay for her clothes. Ever. What the hell is an $1800 dress going to get me? No immediate measurable profits for me lol.
I don't know how much of a Tester she is but I doubt she is an iNvestor because of how beautiful this girl is...... (to give you a hint she is on TV for being so fucking hot)
I feel as if I have accidentally hit the right marks with this TJR Stripper/Escort because of my own romantic turmoil I have experienced. I strived to be as genuine and romantic as possible with every girl that I met after that. Sometimes I would get myself too emotionally involved in some risky relationships (strippers at different clubs) and it was only until recently I started realizing the power of acceptance.
This girl tells me repeatedly how much she is in love with me because of the 'accepting' things that I have been doing out of my quest for enlightenment. I let her know that I'm OK with her seeing other guys, I know it is going to happen. She lets me know that she is OK with me seeing other girls but she is not OK with it emotionally. She has verbally said this but I have my doubts up.
Been trying dreadfully hard not to fall in love with this girl. So far I've been handling it really well emotionally and I feel that this is a golden opportunity to harden myself emotionally. I mean who gets to experience the hottest girl as his 2nd real girlfriend?