Long story short:
I am constantly gaming other girls, improving myself and having fun and I do not have the "oneitis" thing.
However I have that one ex-girlfriend, that is somehow special to me. The girl is truly loving me and I find in her a lot of things I like. Not only the looks.
Unfortunately, back in the days I did not know how to handle a relationship and hurted her really bad. She invested a lot in our relationship and I was constantly ignoring it. This ruined the trust. She contacts me really often and even met twice recently. Everything was going well, but I did act bad again... and now she is sad.
I really feel bad about hurting her so many times, I do not find my behaviour towards her manly in any way.
Since I can meet her whenever I want, I truly feel that it is best to just go and look her straight in the eyes and tell her how I fill about what I did and what feelings do I have. I do not expect this to fix anything, nor will I do it to "buy" her reaction or attention.
I would like to know what do you guys think.