I didn't want to say anything about this on the forum, but I really wanted some advice from pros that have been in lots of LTRs as well, I will keep this as clear as possible.
Met this rare hottie from my own country twice back around April - June of last year, through family.every scenario we met in was a group scenario She was 19 at the time and I didn't really make any moves, just a Fb close. Fast forward to details, she was attracted to my appearance primarily and flirted with me quite intensely, I kept the flirting to a minimal in decent bite sized chunks and kino was always somewhat in play hiddenly. The first time, I showed a major ioi that aimed for one goal which paid off on the third meet.Finding attractive looking people from our country is quite difficult. She and I both know that. I'm also quite tall and well built, which is rare in our country and she compliments my height. But that's all pure attraction and its foolish of me to believe that in itself will keep her waiting for me. In the first 2 meets since it was purely group scenarios I was the leader directing all interactions, and I met her BFF on the second visit and I got her approval and all of her other friends, her parents loved me too.The third time we met the one thing I can remember is "aww you'd make a great hubby," It is exactly what I was aiming for with my major ioi from earlier.I acted unaffected when she said this though, bad choice? She is very submissive around me. I could not build any rapport as isolating her was impossible. I could only build attraction.
I know I'm a beginner, No F - closes yet from gaming, (Not a virgin but I don't count that first one) I still did not get past my chumpy behavior, that looks only get you through the front door, it happens to me with every girl, they are very attracted to me at first based on appearance, then weak game helps me lose the girl completely. Because of this factor I took her Fb to open her later, and I also felt that I needed to have my career a go if I were to pursue her(for her parents approval), which I am starting to admit may be just an excuse, but I felt that I will be better off if I game her in 6 - 12 months from now cause I was a wussy, I would have financial stability I said to myself. I didn`t not want to ruin it between us, with my bad phone game at the time either. If I lose her I lose her completely right...
For that reason since August of last year no contact. I have been practicing and talking to other girls since then. But my one-itis for her keeps getting worse. Especially because I stalk her Fb sometimes, I know I shouldn't be.
So should I be pursuing this girl and building that all important relationship that requires a lot of time and effort, dedication and connection. Seeing if she likes me for genuinely for who I am even if my skills aren't as great yet? or is that a bad idea and I can lose her for good? F&$k the DHV's the good looks and every f*$*ng other bullshit excuse and detail and just go and talk to her? or do I improve my game so I can 100% secure her.
I believe she is just looking for the right guy to give it too lol kind of a dream come true for me, because I've been looking for her type for a looong time. I know she's really into me,but I don't want weak game being the factor that made me lose her.
What to do if she doesn't remember my FB is dead with no profile picture? I would just number close her quick over FB. I'll give it a try if you guys think I should go for it now.
I know its a long post, but I would appreciate it immensely if I could get some help. I don't know if I should be afraid or I should embrace this fear and just dive deep while " the iron is hot"... or improve myself more?