Hey guys! rembember my post?
Well, She text me months ago (before I pulled away)
And I just I donīt understand what was the real problem in that time... Now we are good (good friends haha)
In that ocasion I send a message saying something like:
"hey, whatīs going on with us, Iīm really donīt understand why you always dissapear and ignore me, I just want to know, because this situation is not good for us because we are good friend too"
(Yes, I know. I made a mistake.)
and She answer this:
"Sorry, I could not answer before
And now I'm the same or worse than you ... I do not understand anything
This is not a good time ... seriously
I'll try to be more open with you,
I am not very open.. you know that
But still that... I'm open to you because we became very good friends
I did not believe it was possible but ... you became my friend
And I say so...
because I did not think that someone like you would be interested befriend me
And I mean that ... we talked and talked until I said "ah well ~ ..I like him" and I did not want it
And then I felt bad about what is happening
Simply for the fact that I told you I liked you and did not show to you
That's why you maybe say "this playing with me"
Just because this is awkard to me..y I'm not for that
I canīt show you ..I just can not
And it's frustrating ..me makes you feel bad because you show what you feel... and sometimes I think I do not deserve to feel that for me
I'm just so cold ....
I never felt love for anyone .... never ... I do not even know what that feels like
.. I think you will get tired of it faster than I can do something
I do not trust anyone romantically and I'm too afraid to have a relationship for now
And I know it sounds stupid but can really scares me ..
We do not know much each other... and that is my fault
But for now I just want to be friends ... because otherwise we will end badly .... and that will be my fault
Because I do not always'll answer your calls and messages ...
We did not see so much
And if we are, I will be as I am ... cold
And I do not want that
And I appreciate your friendship is important to me
So I just I can not
Because that will ruin"
What do you think about it? What happened in that moment?