I've showed a girl through my behavior that I'm insecure and shy and, perhaps, socially awkward. She also hasn't tried contacting me in over three weeks whereas, before, she was initiating contact with me. This girl is also very beautiful and probably has many guys in her life vying for her attention. I'm thinking she probably put me at near the bottom of the list now, even though she was interested in dating me at first, and we did go out on a couple dates. We didn't really establish a strong emotional connection and it became worse because I was shy at work and didn't talk to her. Now, I left work a few days ago to transfer to a new job without even saying goodbye or 'nice working with you' to her. That wouldn't have felt right because we didn't talk at work really and she blew me off and didn't contact me for over three weeks now.
I am obsessing a little over this girl because she's so hot. That's the only reason, plus she has a great personality, but she's just so hot it's not even funny. I feel like I'm looking at an angel when I look at her. It's hard because I think I will never see a girl again my life who I'm that attracted to physically. I feel like I blew a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. She saw me behaving shy, insecure, and socially awkward and now I'm afraid it's over. For example, on my last day at work another coworker said something about me along the lines of 'you left me alone in the room with him' to which she responded 'it's not that bad' and I just smiled, ignored it, and walked away. It's awkward behavior.
There's an irrational hope within me that she still has some interest and will contact me now that I've left work and we're not in that awkward situation anymore. I also apologized to her for the awkward situation, telling her I'm shy and like to keep things professional at work. So, irrationally, I'm hoping she might call me, but I won't call her because that would be bad probably and look needy. She already blew me off and I don't want her to think I left my job for her which I didn't. I know women act off of emotion and as long as I didn't create emotional attraction, there's no way she's going to try contacting me even though I'm out of her life now completely.