So I've been working with this woman for about 6 months, and we had went out on a date a while back in September kissed but it didn't turn into anything we quit talking for quite some time, even at work it was a little awkward but I kinda have feelings for her so I try to hide them by being quite cold shouldered.
about a week ago we started talking again, and talked about being friends with the benefit of having some extra "Fun" on the side. Like me pulling her into a room at work to kiss, or hanging out and making out those kinda things. So the first night we hangout we both go out to the middle of nowhere and get drunk , we talk and make out from 11pm to around 3:30 am. No sex, I'm not the pushy kinda guy I'm respectful, didn't make her do anything she didn't want to do. she said she was scared because of a previous relationship. She also is telling me at this point that she has feelings for me... Also says we would do this same the next night... The next night comes and she's busy babysitting. And she proved it with pics so that's fine, so I ask about Friday, she says I dont know I don't wanna hangout to much I don't want a relationship or to get attached. Friday night comes along and she has a friend she was gonna go get drunk with but she said she also wanted to hang out with me, but her friend was being a bitch. So I just told her to do what she wanted. So she ended up going to her friends that night, we texted and snapchatted all nighy while she was there. So Saturday night after I get off work, we finally go back out in the middle of nowhere and get drunk again and make out, so I started to go for it this time after we had been there for a few hours . And she stopped me again, me still being respectful I didn't force anything, still no sex this night. Just another long night of talking she was talking about being afraid of getting attached and that both people get hurt. And that she's fucked up in the head, how could I even like or care about her. Me being me, I comfort her and try to make her see through my point of view. So I drive her home and say our good nights, she even texts me as if we were together kind of thing, checkin up on me every now and then to make sure I made it home ok, 35 minute drive. Sunday comes along, she slept all day. And at night hardly texted me at all, she went out partying with several friends and got really drunk, but did let me know she was safe afterwards.
one more point to make before I can ask the actual question.
shes 18, I'm 23, most of the people I work with are 18-28 all the 18/19 yr olds there several of them had talked not to me but to other workers about her kinda whoring around.
but the fact she won't have sex with me makes me question it, I've not had any issues before when going out or making out with someone to jump to sex, with people younger or older than me.
so my question is, is she really afraid of getting hurt, and hurting me and just wants to take things slow. Or is she just absorbed in the fact that I really care for her and she doesn't want that to change for any reason, even though it could be more. Or is she just not attracted?