i met this girl at a small party i threw about a month ago. i felt a real cool vibe right away and we ended up just kind of talking alone for a while. By the time we were fairly drunk (i wouldn't say wasted) we ended up making out and then having sex (great sex i may add). I didn't find out until the next day she has a boyfriend, but she said they are "kind of fizzled out" (whatever that may mean). She told me that she was going to tell him, but it seems she never did. We started texting everyday and hanging out for coffee and such. We had sex again about a week and a half later, this time without alcohol involved. So with talking to her more and hanging out I really start to feel the connection and let my guard down. last time we had sex, wetalked about it afterword and she said we should stop because it wasn't the right thing to do to her boyfriend-- but the very next day she said she "thought about it again and had a really good time" (i still don't know if she meant the sex or just our time together in general). Anyway, yesterday she texted me seven pages worth or gibberish which in summary said "i cant sleep with you anymore, i was being selfish and i hope we can be friends". She said her relationship was unstable but that "didn't give her the right to fark up". I told her i was starting to like more than the sex, but was very brief with her overall to the point she asked if i was mad at her (I only said ok, i understand). i told her no and that was it. (really i'm only mad at myself for starting to like her).
To be truthful, I really do like a lot of things I see in her… More than I've seen in any girl for a long time. It's probably best advice to forget about her, but i think i really fell hard for her and I can't get it out of my head.
I feel like i should at least give something a try… I don't have a lot to loose other than possibly looking desperate. So far I've only been able to think of ignoring her for a few days and seeing if she texts me at all. She seems to feel guilty and confused, but never admitted she liked me.
I may be teased here for being too soft for a PUA forum, but I wonder if anyone here has had a similar experience or can offer any constructive advice.