Ml and I have been making out at work during lunch and during rendezvous in nooks and crannies. She felt guilty since she's seeing some guy so she's stopped it a couple times but always come back.
Texts were flirtatious, we were working our way towards sex. I copped a feel, sucked some tit, and felt up her p*ssy. No resistance but it was lunch in my car so we couldn't do much more than that. Hmmm.
Anyway, M quits but we still text and make plans to meet up. She gets jealous over something that someone told her about me. I ease her fears. Last text is full of her calling me corazon and me describing all the sexy things I want to teach her. I'm supposed to go down the following Monday to meet up with her at lunch.
So I think someone puts her on blast to her boyfriend about me over the weekend. Well not me by name but someone makes an accusation and now M is on lock down. I sent a few texts got nothing back. Made a few calls. She would answer once and then not answer the rest. I let it go. Oh yeah, she tells me she's in Las Vegas visiting her sister. I have no reason to doubt.
I've got some stuff going on my life that is driving me nuts. I just want to talk to this girl. I need her affection to boost my confidence. I know - neediness is not attractive. It seems like my call gets cut off so I try to call back to apologize for my crappy phone. No answer. This phone is never answered. My phone dies so I use a friends phone to call. She answers, we talk for a while and then I have to go. I make a call the next day from friends phone. No answer.
I don't know what's up. So I make a few more calls make a few more texts. Nothing.
I find out she's not in vegas. I find out her other friends have been texting and getting text backs no problem. I thought it may have been a reception thing. I'm looking haggard from all the stress in my life. Not just the girl. Oh yeah, she's telling her friends what I'm texting her. (that sucks) This is when I find out that she's afraid to text me cause her husband is checking her phone and she told me she's in Vegas cause she was afraid I'd stop by.
Life is a mess so I tell her. "Just want to let you know but you may not me hear from me for a couple of days. I've got some stuff to deal with"
It's true. She texts back instantly. "Why? What?" I tell her i've got stuff on my mind. I think she thinks it's all about her. She texts "Well get some rest, forget your problems, forget me, and don't take too many pills"
I tell her I don't want to forget her. And then she pulls out the big gun. "I've already forgotten you and I'm happy."
I say "I don't believe you, it's not that easy, we don't really want that"
She says it's true. Bye. Boom. Done.
I text back. I'm not trying to end us I just have stuff to take care of. Nothing back.
So I don't text back or call or facebook or anything. I want to give her space. She seems to do this stuff when things go wrong with her boyfriend. But it stings. I don't want to be forgotten.
She does text me back cause someone told her that I am very mad and want to tell her husband. I tell her it's not true that this person is a liar and trying to upset her. I think she believes me. I don't know for sure.
My separate situation is resolved Friday. People at work notice. I'm feeling good. I look at all my recent texts to M and see what I did. I see my neediness and desperation. I don't want to text her and get her in trouble so I send a face book message today. I don't want her to think I'm trying to forget her.
I explain that the dude who sent all those texts and made all those calls should be forgotten. And the guy she would make out with and flirt and had fun with should be remembered. I tell her a bit about what was going on. That I'm not needy or desperate like that. I remind her of our good times. I remind her that I want to keep this thing going and that I'm here for here. Cause I am. I like the girl. I tell her that maybe we can continue this day that there are still lots of things we can learn each other.
And now I'm here. What are your thoughts? Did I make the right move. She's a good looking girl and I like her and I don't want things to end like this. Not before they got started. Do you think it's too late? Do you think it's more of her modus operandi of pulling away and then once I let her pull away she comes back? History tells me it's just a ploy to protect herself with her current relationship.