You'll find out why I think I'm just being a wussy in a minute, but first, please just give me a minute to justify myself...
Trust me, this is more interesting than most of the cries for help on here, its a challenge and I promise I'll actually act on any advice you give me...just bear with me...
I'm 21 and I've been trying to sort out my love life for like 3 years, actually, that's not quite true, I got a massive crush on a girl 3 years ago and have spent most of my time since then paralysed by fear trying to convince myself to do something about it.
I find the whole thing infuriating, because I'm usually very confident about most aspects of life and just keep trying until I achieve whatever it is I want.
For example, I started a business this year with my older brother and think nothing of selling products worth thousands of pounds (I'm in the UK) as a result of one conversation over the phone with people I've never spoken to before...that takes serious balls I'll tell you...but I can't pluck up the courage to talk to a girl!
I've read pretty much everything there is about pickup and could probably recite the whole mystery method verbatim. Trouble is, I've done sh*t all with the information hahahaha.
My main excuse for being a wussy is, as ashamed as I am to admit it, self-esteem issues.
I really like who I am, I wouldn't want to be anybody else, but I have a neuro-muscular condition called Muscular Dystrophy that confines me to a wheelchair and I seem to have decided that it makes me undateable.
You'd think that would be a reasonable limiting belief, but I'm pretty sure its complete bullsh1t for reasons you'll discover.
I do have massive oneitis for the girl I mentioned earlier, but to be honest, I'm so fed up with it I just want to get it out of my system...if I asked her out and she laughed in my face I'd just be relieved rather than disappointed...
Thing is, I don't think she would laugh at me lol.
All the previous interactions I've had with her have been pretty good because, ironically, I've been so sh1t scared I've had to focus really hard to keep up a conversation.
Mostly its just consisted of me teasing her relentlessly and being cocky-funny, which seems to work really well.
I know her from university so we mostly interact in lectures and on one occasion about 18 months ago we had a full on, slightly flirtatious, mock argument in front of the whole class because I called her on some bullsh1t.
I'd actually forgotten about it until my lecturer (who was present) reminded me. He seems to associate me with this girl as he always mentions her when he sees me.
I have loads of other examples of stuff like that when I think back on it and actually it was always her who initiated a conversation.
I was always careful about just being friendly because she seems to have a terrible habit of putting guys in the friend zone more often than I take a sh1t. One poor bloke in particular follows her round like a dog on a leash pretending to be her best friend...
She's most definitely a HB10 by the way, a real one, not a fake breasted bimbo stripper (no offence to them though )
Anyway, I would like to ask you guys for help because it's getting to be a bit of a last chance saloon thing as:
-She's now finished university and will, as far as I know, be living a little way away.
-I haven't spoken to her in a while because I deferred a year at uni so we lost contact a bit. She has messaged me on facebook a couple of times but has caught me off guard and I've come across as standoffish and bottled it.
-I'd like to make the best shot possible at having a relationship with her but I'm not sure where to start. Then if it doesn't work I can move on without regret.
-The only means of contact I have is facebook (wouldn't be that weird for me to message her but I don't want to look like I'm begging.)
So my question is: what would you do in my situation?
Thanks in advance guys