Shy Girl+Sex=Very Confused Guy
So my sisters bestfriend, a cute blonde girl always seems to be way into to me. The only problem is she is to shy to show interest in me or feel comfortable flirting with me unless shes drunk. It's not like she isn't pretty. But I realized this wasn't just the booze talking because she would always chose to come talk and flirt with me over other guys every time we ever spent time together or were at a party. That and my sister told me she was interested in me. But again she is very shy and I guess insists that being drunk is the only way she would have the courage to flirt with me or escalate sexually in any way. I would love to just get drunk too and make her dreams come true, possibly mine too. But the only problem there is I can't drink alcohol, my body just won't break it down and I have a pretty good chance of killing myself if I do. One time we were alone and she tried getting me to drink some, being super flirty saying things like "don't you want to drink with me." while waving her hips around and "Come on I'll make sure you have a great time, it won't be boring." but as tempted as I was too drink some and have some fun with her, then pray someone got me to the hospital in before I died. I refused and she started to cry. I felt bad but she was very drunk, but anyways knowing that she is drunk and I am sober I would feel very guilty if I did anything with her while she was intoxicated. It's just not who I am, it feels wrong when I do anything with a girl when I know she is way more messed up than me.
Well anyways one night I come home late around 2 after a long smoke session and my sister is drunk stumbling around in my house. So I help her down the stairs put her on the couch and hand her a pillow. I walk into my room to find this girl in my bed. She is still awake and notices me walk in and is asking me to lay down with her. I know she's drunk sh1t! I paused and had one of those The-Devil-whispering-into-my-ear-and-Jesus-whispering-in-the-other moments. Sad to the devil won hey I'm only a man. So we ended up having sex and I could tell she enjoyed it. But the next day we see each other and were even in the same room and she still didn't talk about what had just happened literally 14 hours ago.... So I am confused. I know girls don't always view sex as something super important and fall in love with every guy they sleep with. But I am still confused she gets really nervous when I talk about me being attracted to her or me trying to flirt. She just shuts down when I try to compliment her. But we finally talked about it 2 weeks later and she told me she was wasted that night, I lied and told her I was drunk too. I wasn't exactly sober though. Still not a good excuse... I genuinely like this girl, she's funny, cheerful, and just general tries to make every experience a joyful one. Is there any advice you can give me about this one? Or should I just not waste my time?
*Dance With The Devil*
Remember That You're Not On My Level