I just finished reading your latest and probably last post regarding your high school sweetheart. I would have prefered not to ruin the whole thread by replying to it but, I think a lot will benefit from what I am going to say. And, we can always go deeper in PM's.
I don't think you could have done anything more and better from what you have done. I'm glad you finally see life for what it truly is. No it's not too late for you to see that. There are guys a lot older than you that are less mature then me. Use that new found knowledge to your advantage. Make it your aly. Do not fight it.
Keep doing those breathing techniques and get yourself into yoga or something like that. Jog around the block to get yourself back into shape and to get yourself tired so you'll eat and sleep well. Time is the greatest healer but it only does so if you're letting go.
I don't want to sound pick-upy here but I kind of don't how to talk about women in a normal way, I want you to re-initiate the NJR even if it's just to have yourself a good flirty text session. I want you to start making approaches and I want you to flirt with any women any time anywhere as soon as you see an ioi.
I'm glad you haven't decided to give up on love. Love is the purest and most wonderful of emotions. It is wild, makes us unpredictable and gives us strength. No one knows why we fall in love or what it truly is, all we know is it feels farking fantastic doesn't it?
Finaly, you're welcome - I guess you were talking about me back there - you are a good guy, I know you will do well with women and if you need something, anything you know where to find me provided you don't dis anymore of my techniques .