I usually have no problem with girls because I just dgaf most of the time. But the second I start developing attraction to them other than a physical one, I'm hopeless. I I met this girl in my class at the beginning of the year. At first I had my eyes on a different girl which seemed to be going well but it ended up not working at all. I admit, I was in a bit of a funk after that, so to get over it I asked this girl in my class out. I would flirt here and there and she would flirt back, giving me ioi's n whatnot so I said what the hell why not. I really had no idea what to expect with this girl, I thought she was attractive and a good girl overall, but I mainly just did it to get back in the game again. Well, now I'm hooked on this one, badly.
First date went much better than I expected. She brought up topics I wasn't expecting her to bring up (at least not the first time we go out), such as virginity and where I've had sex, etc. It kind of took me off guard a little bit, but overall I got to know her a lot better that night on a different level as well. I know I could have made a move that night, but I didn't, mainly because I didn't want to rush into things since we are in the same class, and I didn't want to make anything awkward. A few weeks pass, I see her in class only but thats it. Tried taking her out again but things came up left and right and I was tired of always starting the convos with her. I figured I was in the friendzone and I was ready to just forget about her and move on to the next. Plus I'm moving an hour away in 4 months so that helped me forget about it.
I don't talk to her for a week or so, but she was still in the back of my mind, so I say screw it and I ask her out one last time, and it ends up going thru. Things went well again, lots of flirting and deep convos like the last time minus the sex talk. The whole night was filled with positive signs so I became hopeful again and the symptoms of oneitis begin to kick in. As I dropped her off at her place I was ready to kiss close, but as soon as I parked she says I had a great time tonight, text me when you get home, and rushes out of the car. Now I'm sitting here thinking wtf? I was almost positive it was going to happen because of how the car ride back was. I'm getting so many mixed signals with her and at this point I don't know what to think. There is this weird attraction between her and I, and a couple people in my class have told me that it's obvious we are both into each other because of how we interact in class.
The next time I saw her was on campus a few days later. I was so sick of beating around the bush with her that I completely disregarded playing the game and told her straight up, "I'm into you, and I'm pretty sure you're into me too, so what was the deal?" She says she is too and that she enjoys being with me and talking with me. She could have easily said no lets just be friends, but she didn't.
To finish up this story, another few weeks pass. I'm starting to just have my doubts again because we haven't progressed from where we were at before. Things always came up or we were both busy, and I was always the one initiating it. I tired of it at this point. Now it's finals week (this week), and out of nowhere I get a random text from her, which I didn't expect at all because it's usually me that initiates the random convos. Except this time it turns into texting for the majority of the day. The next 2 days, it's the same thing, she starts the convo and it goes on for the majority of the day. She's going out of the country this weekend for 3 weeks, and shes saying things like "youre going to miss me while im gone" and turn it on her making it seem like shes going to miss me.
I can't take it anymore. I'm 22 and I have never been this attracted to a girl in my life. I know there are plenty of women out there, but she is seriously everything I could ever ask for in a girl, and I want to do something about it before she leaves the country. I know I have the ability to get her, but at this point my emotions are too strong. Im trying to hang out with her before she leaves but she says she's super busy with school and then packing for her trip, but she will let me know. I'm tired of waiting and I just don't know what to do anymore. I know we would be great together, but as much as I don't want to, I should maybe move on. If we do end up hanging out before she goes I wouldn't even know what to do. I've never been in this position before.