How I got my GF back
Me being a drama queen may not be a bad thing. I have been out of it probably since last year after the 3 month POF Oneitis and 1 Year FB HB10 Oneitis I think kinda destroyed me. I was always wasting time and losing my zest for life. I think it was an unknown depression.
Well today I felt was a huge breakthrough that got me over the past relationships. I got my zing back. Weird I don't know if I would be still alive today but because I yelled at her for ignoring me and stormed out I think something clicked. I thought I broke up with her and she came back to me right away but it was pretty lukewarm. Then today I was being a crybaby being lukewarm and posting depressing stuff. I was like on all day and so was she. I know she is watching me like a hawk so I didn't care if her friend ratted me out and started talking to her and she comforted me. Then today she said something very sweet and I think it broke all my old baggage just with a few kind words. But I was dogging on her all day and blaming her so I don't know why she stuck around.
So she said one thing and I said one thing and I felt like it was a great make up. I don't care if she finds out about the friend cuz again I will go to her friend next. But I felt like I finally broke off all the bad juju. So me getting all worked up actually caused her to like me more I think . I tried to get rid of her and she just came crawling back. So I took her back but it took time. Funny how that works.
As far as relationships go my longest is 2 months and we are fast approaching that. I will still game other girls when I am not with her but less frequently due to us hanging out a lot. Also I am facing fierce competition cuz I know she likes this "other guy" who randomly said one day "now he wants a GF." But I feel like throwing it out there like that is pretty desperate so I don't know what she sees in him but that's what I get for a casual relationship and not pushing things to "relationship" territory. I told her it's up to her.
But if it wasn't him it would be someone else. So getting my current GF I had to ignore her a lot, put her on hold till I was ready, and then be pretty honest with myself around her without trying to impress.
When you let go of your feelings you can really then embrace your surroundings
Love is a game that's why I don't worry about it anymore. When you let go of your feelings you find your meaning.