First off i broke up with my ex (of 5 years) about 2 months ago. The woman Im attracted to now, I've known since I was in my early teens and I've had a crush on her since I met her. She is my best buds cousin. About a month ago I was at the nightclub with a group of friends and she was there as well. My best buds girl and her started heavy drinking and eventually got drunk. She came to me and lead to the dance floor, grinds on me and makes out with me leading my hand rubbing her lower belly. My bud picked up on this ( he was her lookout if she was wasted) and I enjoyed it but she was drunk I didn't want to go that way when she was drunk so we all went home. Two nights ago it was me, my bud and his girl, and my crush. We started drinking and we start in getting drunk I noticed my bud moved next to his girl after he was sitting next to his cousin, my crush. I was fighting off the drunkenness walked around and she told me to sit next to her. I sat next to her and noticed she was trying to really get me drunk. Eventually we all went to the living room watched netflix but my buddy's wife passed out so they went to bed but before leaving was trying to figure out where we would be sleeping she insisted she wanted to stay to watch tv ( I was going to sleep on the couch we were on) and that if I wanted her off that I would tell her myself. They left to their room and we watched tv talking about good shows and what shows she has been keeping up with. At this point im so out of it and she lays her body towards me ,not on me at this point. AThen she slowly works her head on my lap with my eyes closed and then I place my hand on her hip and when she del that she started rubbing her fingers on me in a caressing manner. So then I start to rub her hip and with alcohol in my system I didn't hesitate and went in for the kiss. We made out for a good forty five minutes ahe teased me so bad with her kissing and kissing my neck. she was asking me if i remebered the other night and that she enjoyed it. I was not thinking of my actions and pulled her on top of me and I started grabbing her ass and she moaned when I did and when I kissed her neck. When things were headed to sex she leaned in and whispered in my ear that she didn't want to lead me on and that she thinks we shouldnt do this I agreed and then she laid on me and held my hand. Then it escalate again and then the Same thing happened again. It was so late i held her in my lap and we held hands and fell asleep caressing each other. The next morning we didn't talk about it and we tried activities normal about and throughout the day there was minimum awkwardness where I avoided hanging out with her too much. Since then those moments where we laid there holding hands and the intensity and sexual Tension in the making has been running in my mind. I dont know what to do. We have a great friendship but I dont want to lose it but there is that possibility it could could something great.