tonight im starting my sarge thing again

Originally Posted by Snakes

Hi everyone,

it has been more than 18 months since the last time i felt really confident and went sarging. The time in between was horrible and the worst was that i couldnt get myself to do anything to change it.

The night before last i was awake for hours and was really contemplating to jump right out the window so i could get into a hospital bed to become more consiously aware. Luckily i did not had it in me.

Yesterday it took more than twelve hours to feel better again and then i started reading these self improvement books by Brian Tracy and ordered Napoleon Hill's Think Big Grow Rich. Today i spent on reading Leil Lownes How to Be A People Magnet and i am aiming to finish reading by the clock of six. After that i'll go outside and force myself to approach some girls until it feels good and relaxed and i wont stop (im sure i wont because i remember the feeling) until i am exhausted. Tomorrow morning im gonna talk to my rehabshrink (im an recovering addict) and after that i'll spent the rest of the day sarging over and over again and maybe look for a job.

The day after tomorrow im gonna spent reading again because then it is Queensday in Holland and i hate Qday because of all these stupid people being drunk everywhere and seen the fact that i broke up with all of my former friends i dont feel like doping myself up that day. And then sunday, when everyone is having a hangover, im gonna be the golden painkiller

It took months on this forum to get me motivated, but really, today i have to hold myself back because i want to keep my agenda.
Oh yeah and i told my boss that he's a faggot but not that i wont come to work this weekend but he'll find out for himself.
I suspect him of being a pederast and thats why im leaving

So long