Hahaha so true WhiteDragon. Thats why I need to change. It is my problem that I am so clingy and have difficulties to let things go. Like I said it is probably beacause my loved ones always seemed to hurt me from when I was a kid. I was always on my own and I never had a rolemodel or some one to guide me in life. I am what you could say a late bloomer.
I don not even believe I really was that in love but more insescure and that nice feeling of having some one you thought you could relate and conncet to.
So guide me guys. give me the proper tools and show how it is done. And I know that even tough we do not have contact me and my ex she will notice it some way or another that I have changed. They can smell this kind of sh1t from miles away.
And when I am in Amsterdam you should come over some time. You are more then welcome.
"Big and great things have small beginings" and "He who presevers to be, will be."