I've been reading up and utilizing PUA stuff on women like cocky/funny to get numbers and dates. I've never really used it to be a "pick up artist", whatever that is exactly. I got to the point that I could get dates with girls fairly easily and finally got into a relationship with one that I really liked. She's a younger Persian girl and I'm a 25 year old white guy.
I've had no problems, to this point, of keeping my girlfriend and maintaining an alpha position in the relationship. She was always willing to do whatever I wanted to do and interested in the things I was interested in. Never went beta mode at all except to tell her I love her and want to be with her. I was very satisfied with the relationship.
The recent Breakup:
After just getting home from an event with her she catches me totally off guard with what I think is a Sh1t Test. I had just downed a bunch of beers and was playing a video game when she called me telling me that she is "upset" that my facebook profile relationship status was set to private and she couldnt see it from her friend's profile. Hence you couldn't tell I was in a relationship by looking at my status it just said nothing. Of course, if you scrolled down you could easily see all of her posts and surmise that she was my girl very easily.
She questioned me about it suspecting that I was cheating or trying to cheat on her. I simply told her the truth that a couple months back I was tampering with my privacy settings and I' rather not let everyone know about all aspects of my life on facebook. The relationship status I set so that only close friends and family could see it. Now, if I wasn't boozed up I would have kept my cool and everything would have been fine probably but I went no balls beta on her. I got mad and when she said she didn't want to see me like we had planned and told her maybe we shouldn't see each other at all anymore. I set my relationship status to single and hung up on her, called her back and told her it's over. I immediatley regretted my decision in my inebriated state and called her to apologize. At this point she FLIPPED HER sh1t and told me to never farking call her again and she never wants to see or talk to me again. She deleted me and blocked me from facebook.
This is where I went total AFC Beta mode and I started calling her and begging her to talk to me and call back. I couldn't control my emotions and I started crying like a bitch and calling/ texting her. I told her I was going to drive to come see her. I told her I loved her too much to let her go. Blah blah, you get the picture. I probably called her about 20 times and texted in 2 nights without a word from her. Yeah, I know, not good.
I called her one final time to tell her that I wasn't actually going to see her and I apologized yet again and told her that if she wants to talk to call me. That was yesterday.
At this point I'm open to any advice really, I know it's not likely that I'm going to see her again but I don't want to just write it off completely because
1. I was her first sexual relationship
2. She's never been with a dominant guy like me before
3. I know she still has feelings for me after 8 months of being my woman
4. I didn't cheat on her
5. I still love her(Yes I know, you see this all the time, but it's true)
So what do you think? Did I go too beta? What if I just alpha again? Think she'll call in a week or month? Should I just move on? Thanks for reading all of this and any advice is much appreciated.