So we ended up meeting by chance and we got together for 4 months. midway through the relationship I was controlling and didn't want her to do certain things, I was jealous and didn't trust her. I also kept wanting to spend alot of time with her as she was losing feelings. She ended up breaking up with me, the next day I went to her house to get back with her, we ended up getting back, but when we got back she wasn't giving it her all, maybe because we got back purely on me wanting it back. She did something to me one night that got me very angry and I broke up with her. 3 days later i called her back and told her that i feel what i did was irrational and i cared about her and i didn't want to let her go, she said she was done and it would be best for us not to talk, and at that point i started acting desperate. I contacted her friend on facebook to ask her about us and how she thinks we can get back. Terrible, terrible terrible, and i know i was desperate. My ex contacted me to tell me to never speak to her friends and if i have anything to say to tell it to her. After that night I stopped talking to her for 2 weeks. During the 2 weeks she posted on her twitter: Now that I think about it, I don't even know why I was with you. #realtalk.
I came up with a message to inject some value into me and I sent it to her via text.
"I promise with all my heart that this is the last message I will send you. I don't want to say all the typical and desperate things one says when they've farked up because I know I've farked up. One thing I do want to say for closure in all this is thank you. You have so many redeeming qualities that I realize that my place in all this was to make everything possible to make you happy and I failed. But I do remember in the beginning the way we found each other by chance and how we spent 6 hours on the phone just getting to know each other and how your face lit up when we had that wonton soup and how we took care of each other, those days without a care in the world and that's the best thing I can hold onto and take with me. I recognize my faults and problems but this life is about growing and if it takes having lost you to learn the lessons I need to learn so be it. I just wanted to thank you for giving me that opportunity to see what it was like to find a girl so unique and happy and carefree and I know that going forward my purpose is to not let my flaws hold me back from becoming the guy I want to be and appreciate a great thing when I have it. I hope your life is filled with great things because the best that I was able to know of you was your happy essence and I hate to have caused you so much pain because you're worth so much. Even though a lot has happened between us, I will always have a place in my heart for u. What I feel for you Sara is something I've felt for nobody else and whatever you do doesn't change who u are and I see that now. I hope that when u read this u can recognize that everything happens for a reason and finding u was a blessing no matter what. "
Her reply to that was: "Thank you for your kind words"
Was the message too much of a final goodbye??
I don't want anyone telling me to move on because I know I don't want to. I want to win her back and I m going to do whatever it takes. Should i let her sit on what I sent her?
I must fix what i caused, and I know the mistakes i've done, i think the best thing may be to just wait it out and not contact her after that message, but I need to know if there is anything else i can do. I deleted her from facebook initially after the break up.