Ok, i ll try to explain my situation. My gf went for a season job, and we agreed that she ll stay there for a month and then we go to vacation together. We heard on a phone regulary and it was all fine (kisses, love,missing each other etc.).4 days before date we agreed that i come and pick her up she suddenly stopped answering my texts. So, after 2 days on no contact i sat in car and went to see her.
On half way there i recived text from her that she is sorry but she need some time alone and she will stay there for another month. i went to her anyway and we had short conversation where she told me that she need break to decide about her life, feeling, relationship and everything.I was emotionaly devastated but didnt do anything stupid.
I decided to NC her so she can get her space. I stayed for 2 days in town nearby still in hope. 2nd day she texted me if i want her to meet on coffie and i politely declined. 3rd day she sent text that she feels like piece of ****. I responded that i feel same and feeling confused and betrayed by her, and that now i need some time and space either.
But what i feel was mistake, that i sent another message where i explained that i still love her and that i m going to take some trip for couple of weeks and so. She just said, ok, have a safe trip.
Now i think that i should have stick to NC and just answer: sorry you feel that way, without explaining my emotions and plans, so she can just sit and wondering what is happening with me.
So i would like to hear some opinions did i make a mistake, and what to do next? She really acted like **** towards me, but i really love her and want to get her back, but not in the way like it was till now where she had dominance over relationship. (which i belive might be just a reason she dumped me)
Background info: We were best friends for years before relationship, i was her emotional and financial support, we get along very well with each others families.